... i too wish i could wave a magic wand and have that awlful heavy grieving feeling go away, my DD is now 4years old and the feeling still hasn't lightened which to be honest kind of shocks me that it hasn't ... As for the BigW catelogue sadly it hits me the same way but in an odd way i make myself go through it in the hope it might help disenstive me even in the smallest minute way but of course it never does

Hugs to you Dan from me during this tug-on-the heart journey