I did it...I exploded

[maz]

Last week I had W pinging off the wall's...scremaing, carrying on...we caught him trying to sneak out to do trick or treat only thing that saved us was that the gate was locked.

Monday came and W was fine but OMG M started non stop high pitch squelling, hitting, punching, kicking..aggravation.

Tuesday came....W was yet again fine and M started again.....worse the monday. The other 3 kids locked themselves in their rooms awy from him whilst I sat here trying to calm him, rocking him back and forth, patting him, cooing to him, rocking somemore with him

Today came and I thought all was good....then we went to the park and he started on Miss T...man I could of cried. They are normally pea's in a pod and the poor little poppit didnt understand that M was being a monster and thought he was playing...he hit into her twice...the second time I flipped, frew him into the pram and smacked him on the bum with the arm of my jumper. I must off looked like the most horrible belting skummy mothe rin the world...but my heart broke watching poor Miss T trying her hardest to play with him and him just being horrible.

He hit her in the face and I just exploded at him...I know it doesnt sink in and he look's at me with his big green eye's with big tears wondering why the hell I was yelling and being angry at him. I just cant get over him hitting her so full on, and the noises he made...im wanting to hold my ears right now. I thank god that Miss T's mum is so understanding....I would run if someones child was like that let alone the mother.

I remember this stage....I went through it with W ... it lasted 2 years and was really rough. I dont want to get on this ride again...I want to get off...its depressing and bloody lonely.

I HATE AUTISM!!!!! IT SUCK'S BALL'S!!!!!!

Please dont answer..there's no need I just needed to get it out.

[kirsty_lee]

Well I obviously have absolutely no advice sorry Babe because I honestly don't know what works and what doesn't with a child with autism. But I couldn't read it and not reply with at least a huge squishy I hope hubby is home soon so you can go and sit with a cuppa and chill out for a bit. I am so sorry this is so hard. If I had a magic wand to make things better, I most certainly would.

[Elocin]

Like KL, I couldn't not reply with at least some xo

[PumpkinZulu]

So much love

[beckoes]

hugs!

[~me~]

and so many more.

[Just Me]

Oh Maz, I don't know what to say except you are amazing. What you do for your kids and the way you love them is incredible and I am sure they know what a great Mum they have (even if they don't always show their appreciation). We all have crap moments that we aren't proud of - part and parcel of being a mum. Your kids are so lucky to have you

[Enchanted]

No advice here either babe but

I can only imagine how frustrating it must be and TBH I commend you for not losing it more often. You are an angel. You do a wonderful job with your kiddies and we all have our s**t days. So if someone chose to judge you boo to them. Glad that Miss T's Mum was understanding and you didn't have to do with the wrath of a parent.

again. I hope J is home soon Xx

[Jaycee]

I only have Maz, I think you rock.

[Kazmar]

I didn't even know about M's autism.....

Annabelle acts like that though and she hasn't got autism! She gets an anger about her that I too, fly off the handle at


Hun you're a mummy yes, but you're a human and can only take so much

[boobaloo]

you're incredible maz, all of us have a nasty-mummy moments, and that is dealing with ''normal'' children, the fact that you deal with 2 children on the spectrum on a daily basis shows what an amazing mum you are.

[NaeNae]

Maz I wish I could offer you more

[Marlene]

[~Minny~]

Oh hun i could see how much it was upsetting you and how much it hurts, i know its not something you can control T's a tough cookie and i sat down and spoke to her about it, she still loves her V and M Shes already put an order in for what she wants to take to our picnic next time lol

Like the other ladies have said chick, you are never alone in this and if you ever need anything or some space to unwind a bit, just gimme a call im just down the road and you have my numbers just gimme a buzz anytime

[Kazbah]

Maz

[Swoop]

you're always doling out comfort and reassurance to others when they have testing parenting moments, it's only natural and human to have these times yourself. Don't be hard on yourself, your a great mummy

Tomorrow's another day - hope it's a lighter one for you


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[cheekyfrog]

Maz, everyone - and I mean EVERYONE - has a snapping point. Want to send you some great big hugs, tell you that you are much loved and that everything will be all right.

[blessedatlast]

It must be terrible knowing what you are infor. But look at this way. You have been here & got through this stage. YOu can approach things with an experienced hand

I agree with Efjay's post.. And wanted to say you are an amazing Mum/woman/friend. I can't offer any advice, but I can offer massive hugs and we will always listen to you.. I don't know what you are going through, but you are never alone in BB land xx