I remember on more than one occasion saying to my sister "I wish we never had him" in the first few weeks (makes me sick to my stomach that I said that ). It didn't matter to me how many times I heard "life isn't the same after a baby", etc, etc. I still thought in my head "yeah, yeah, I"ll cope thanks". But GEES...its like a friggin tonne of bricks hits you. I was like you and had no help in the first few weeks. Sure DH was around, and he did help, but about 90% of it was me. His mum was also terminally ill so he spent a lot of time away from home being with her (which is understandable - but I felt so needy, so desperate for someone to help me - which I couldn't be open with DH about because I thought he had enough to deal with). And my mum lives in UK.
I remember having several long and loud crying sessions about missing my old life, but I have to promise you it DOES get better. I remember thinking I'd never be happy/relaxed/content ever again. Its amazing the effects of sleep deprivation (and I had a good sleeper - I just didn't sleep when he did during the day - that would have made a massive difference I think). Sleep deprivation is sooo understated (is that the right word??).
As DS has grown older (now 15months), he has changed and adapted to our lives. I'm getting a normal nights sleep, and the difference is incredible. And its just wonderful how interactive and independent he has become. I would even like to start trying for a 2nd soon! I remember it wasn't long ago that I didn't want another baby ever!
If DH had his way, he'd be back playing cricket (and you know how muchtime that takes up). But I put my foot down with that. He is still not home a few nights a week, and has just started exercise classes 2 morning too. Part of me still thinks his life hasn't changed that much, he still does what he wants to some extent. He does help, if I ask him to. But he seems to scared to do anything in case he does it wrong, or not how I want it done! Could your DH be the same?
Sorry if this is a bit jumbled...just wanted to let you know I went through the same feelings. It does get better. It does, it does, it does!! Once you start getting more sleep, you'll feel like a different person. It will happen
). It didn't matter to me how many times I heard "life isn't the same after a baby", etc, etc. I still thought in my head "yeah, yeah, I"ll cope thanks". But GEES...its like a friggin tonne of bricks hits you. I was like you and had no help in the first few weeks. Sure DH was around, and he did help, but about 90% of it was me. His mum was also terminally ill so he spent a lot of time away from home being with her (which is understandable - but I felt so needy, so desperate for someone to help me - which I couldn't be open with DH about because I thought he had enough to deal with). And my mum lives in UK.
Could your DH be the same?
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