No more baby club

[maz]

I have to start this thread...I know of a few of us who feel like the ground is being taken from under our feet because we wont be having any more babies

As scared as I am of having another special need's kid.....I still have that longing, that yearning to have feel alittle person growing from the love of Jed and me in my belly.

Those late night acrobatics when you lay down to go to sleep, watching your little person rolling from one side of your tummy to the other. The excitement of feeling those flutters, and sitting on the loo praying that AF wont turn up with every wipe you take. Knowing other people (like me ) envious that you have created something magical and special within yourself.

Late night feed's in the darkness were its only the 2 of you breathign each other in.
Watching my other children oh and ah over the new addition to the family....watching for that first smile and their hands reach out for you. The excitement in their face when you enter the room. The first laugh...man...

Iknow we should be happy that we have children.....but its an ache in my heart knowing there will never be another one . I hope to hell Im not going to be one of those overbearing grandmothers

[Rach75]

i know lukes not yet 8 weeks but i know i have that yearning for another that will never be forfilled as well

[Bathsheba]

Tell me about it Maz! I am already consoling myself that my DD might have a baby of her own in as little as 8 years if she follows in my footsteps. I am holding onto all the nicest baby clothes, cot, toys, shoes etc for that happy day. How bad is that!

In some ways my mind was made up for me when I was diagnosed with my Graves disease. if it wasn't for this wretched condition i would be really grieving... as it is with my fatigue etc at least has made me realise that I need to embrace the next phase of life. It's hard though... for all the reasons you stated.

[squidipa]

maz massive hugs to you i cry over this i wanted so many and i just physically cant and its so upsetting I wish ppl could have them for me. I know i shoudl be happy with the 4 plus one growing in me but i think some ppl are just born made mummies and thats me and maybe you. Where you always want more, i cant wait for grand kids but dd is only 11 and i dont want her to have them yet. I am slowly going through the acceptance process of this is it. :hugs to ya

[Bathsheba]

My DD is 15 soon.... this sounds appalling but I won't be angry with her if she falls pregnant before i did (24) but in reality she has a very arms-length approach to physical intimacy and i can't see that happening anytime soon! Must remember that she is on her own journey and MUST not interfere! I am really looking forward to being a grandmother though... i have idolised that phase of life ever since I was a child. I revered my own grandmother and wanted to grow up to be just like her! I think I have been living like a granny for the past 20 years... y'know, doing my needlwork, wearing my apron... good grief i was experiementing with hair rollers last weekend... my own mother never wore them... but I think nana did! LOL I am seriously going to love being a Nana!

[squidipa]

bath same here cant wait wait to be a grandmama

[~clover~]

I have tears in my yes now!
I feel exactly like that. I could of course, but with 3 kids with very strong & different personalities I'm too scared. Its hard enough.

[smiles4u]

Maz all i can say this is such a wonderful, wonderful thread ... thank you from the bottom of my warm heart to your's

... DP & i said our goodbye to TT#2 not long ago (we had be trying for 2.5years) and as i am turning 44 next month it just feels so much harder being further away from it all. I many times feel like i'm grieving for those baby years of my now 3.5year old DD & know i will never be able to experience them again, then there is the guilt of not being able to give my much deserved and beautiful funny character DD a sibling like any other child may have but then i think to myself i put in a pretty good darn effort for my age (body might be getting old but i dont feel it, LOL) and i reckon one day when she can understand i will hopefully hear from her how proud she is of me for getting as far as i did at almost 44

Then yesterday it hit me like a lightening bolt i ' might ' yeh maybe get to be a grandmother one day if i live long enough ... and then the excitement came flooding back ... i just ' might ' have another bubba to cradle in my arms again one day that is part of me

So DP bought it to my attention that if DD has her 1st baby at 40 like i had her at 40 i would be 80 as a grandmother and fingers crossed i'd still be around to squeeze in that magical experience ....... (or if not maybe i will go foster a ton of children, like my own Mum fostered )

[mrsmac]

I am so glad too that you started this thread Maz cause this is the point in my life too. I get teary when other people announce their pregnancies even though I have had my turn and i am glad for them.

Sometimes I wish we had another BB for us to move to cause i dread the day I have to leave cause my children are way too old and everyone on here is young enough to be my daughter LOL

I don't like to think about grandchildren because I think I am in denial about getting older! DD is 18 so realistically it could be in the next few years (she says not) but I don't feel excited about grandchildren I feel dread at being old!

[maz]

I just went to coles and heard and saw a newborn cry....I nearly started and that I got that tingling..you know, the one when you know your bub is just about ready for their next feed....

I take my hat of to you girls who can think about grandchildren already.....Im so not there to think of that yet. I look at V and cant imagine her having kids yet, I dont see her in that light yet and I dont want to for such along time .

N knows how I feel...at the grand old age of 9. He asked me one day that when he get's married and has babies can I help and love them as much as I love him
OMG I wanted to slap him for making me so proud that he asked and again for seeing how much I do love him.

Sarah said in another thread that she cried when she got AF. I gotta say, everytime i O I think what a waste and pray for some big miracle that my tubes have grown back together again. I fell pg with my tubes clamped.....so why couldnt I be so lucky

[~clover~]

Why you think I've had these pg freak outs lately? I think its coz I want a sneaky one. I could just go get my depo needle.... lol

[Anila]

I have to start this thread...I know of a few of us who feel like the ground is being taken from under our feet because we wont be having any more babies

As scared as I am of having another special need's kid.....I still have that longing, that yearning to have feel alittle person growing from the love of Jed and me in my belly.

Those late night acrobatics when you lay down to go to sleep, watching your little person rolling from one side of your tummy to the other. The excitement of feeling those flutters, and sitting on the loo praying that AF wont turn up with every wipe you take. Knowing other people (like me ) envious that you have created something magical and special within yourself.

Late night feed's in the darkness were its only the 2 of you breathign each other in.
Watching my other children oh and ah over the new addition to the family....watching for that first smile and their hands reach out for you. The excitement in their face when you enter the room. The first laugh...man...

Iknow we should be happy that we have children.....but its an ache in my heart knowing there will never be another one . I hope to hell Im not going to be one of those overbearing grandmothers

i felt every word
and actually had a lil bit of *cough cough* water in my eye, lol