Well, I hope this is the right place to be saying all this. I dont know where else to talk about it.
I am pretty much at the end of my rope. I dont know what I am doing and dont have anyone near by that I can ask. Mum and dad are 800 km away and all my friends are there too.
I live in a isolated area and have been here for a year now and have not made any real friends.
I had my baby in mid october back at home around friends and family and we bought her home in mid November. Since then she has gone from being a little angel to a devil child. I never know why she is crying - which she does a lot. I do the checklist - how long since her feed, is her bum wet, does she want a cuddle. Nothing ever seems to work.
DH works 12-14 hours a day and doesnt help out at home. He doesnt seem to be intersted in our daughter at all and I feel like I am alone in caring for her. He doesnt do any of her feeds. I dont know whether I am more frustrated with him or with my daughter. She is a beautiful little girl but I can't stand to be around her! I feel like the worst mum in the world.