I cried all the way to hospital when i had DS2 because I was so sad for DS1. Like you I felt so awful that he'd been the centre of our world and now it would all be different and that he wouldn't really understand (he was three days off turning two). He also spent lots of time on our bed, and my time in hospital was the first time I'd spent the night away from him. DS2 is 8 weeks now and while there's been some moments where it's been really hard for the most part DS1 loves his little brother. I try to spend as much time with him alone doing stuff as possible when DS2 is asleep or when some else has him, but more often than not DS1 asks where DS2 is and wants him to join us.

So all perfectly normal, valid feelings. They WILL go away and you can enjoy your beautiful two children without feeling bad xx

Good luck