Not selfish, smart We are lucky that my Dh is in the military so job security and a steady salary are what keeps us afloat. I cant imagine not having that assurance, I worry enough as it is now! We never intended on having 3, we actually struggled to conceive #1 and then #2 was a fertility treatment baby so anything more than that was a bonus. Then we had #2 and after the horrid pregnancy I had said done and dusted. But then I got clucky and felt like I wasnt done so talked Dh into just one more (even though Ive always wanted 4+) and got surprised by this little miracle on our move up here! Some days I think Im a bit mad with 3 under 2.5 but for the most part its fun! Time flies. We're definately dont though, I want to study nursing (well midwifery but if we stay here nursing it is for the time being) and get 'me' back if that makes sense. I feel like Ive been pregnant and feeding for so long my poor body needs a break That and Dh feels very neglected haha Happy mama = happy family so Im hanging up my pregnancy panties when bub is born and will be content to help deliver other people's when the time comes.

Oh and Im getting a neice of nephew in July so more baby-ing without actually having to take it home with me