Ellie, I know how you feel. I had my scan last week at 13 weeks and I was terrified. I had just lost a baby at 8 wks and found out at a scan that it had gone So I was so afraid of the scan even though I'd already seen a healthy baby at 9wks this time (after some very scary spotting). I had no indication that anything was wrong either but couldn't get the thought out of my head and then was even thinking that the fact I was so worried must mean something, maybe I subconciously knew it wasn't going to be ok. LOL, of course everything is perfect. I think it's kinda a way of protecting ourselves so that if something is wrong we will be prepared. I'm sure everything will be fine and once you see that little baby on the screen you will be so relieved and can just enjoying watching the little bub splash around in there, lol, it was the best thing ever once I realised it was in there and its heart was beating. Good luck, I will be thinking of you
I truly understand the fear that you are feeling. It's a post traumatic response really and it is felt by everyone who has suffered losses, especially repeated ones.
I lost 3 mid trimester babies and they were all discovered on u/s. So my fear levels were absolutely through the roof. I was beside myself and I wouldn't have made it through without all of the wonderful friends on BB and my fabulous obs. She u/s me weekly to apease me and each time we each sighed a huge sigh. Most often I just burst into tears of relief.
So, I hear you - you are experiencing a terrifying thing and we are all here to support you and hold your hand.
The 25th is my 41st birthday and I will be here thinking of you and sending you all my support.
Oh ladies...I put my mascara on this morning convinced I could have a 'blubber' free day...and your kind words have turned me into a 'panda' with mascara and tears running down my face...I look a sight! Thank you all so much...I wish there was a way to express how much your suppport means to me...just being able to express all my fears out loud and to be heard and understood is such a comfort and blessing...thank you xxx
Good morning my wonderful 'hand holding' support crew...
Feeling really upbeat this morning! Had a big d&m with dh last night...I am so lucky to have him...so after a big blubber about my fears about Monday I went off to have a long hot shower...when I came down stairs there he is...all relaxed out on the lounge reading a Pregnancy Magazine...was so cute...he was concentrating so hard on what he was reading he didn;t even notice I was there. So he has decided that the pram and car seat are really important purchases so he's going to start doing some research...after all is well on Monday of course. What a sweetheart! One day closer...
Ellie - you are doing so well and your fear is totally understandable. Just remember that whatever you are thinking or feeling - we have all done it as well and it is normal! Scans are a double edged sword - they offer us reassurance but are just plain scary.
I almost cried reading about your DH. So sweet. I love hearing of supportive fathers-to-be. I am very lucky to have one of those myselves. And my DH was dying to buy a pram as well and did research on it. Our latest purchase is the Angelcare baby monitor and he has played around with it and worked out all the settings...and tested it on me one afternoon when I was sleeping. He told me that it works. So happy to hear you have good support at home.
Keeping thinking positive thoughts and holding onto your dreams of holding this baby.
I know how you feel. I had my scan last week at 13 weeks and I was terrified. I had just lost a baby at 8 wks and found out at a scan that it had gone
So I was so afraid of the scan even though I'd already seen a healthy baby at 9wks this time (after some very scary spotting). I had no indication that anything was wrong either but couldn't get the thought out of my head and then was even thinking that the fact I was so worried must mean something, maybe I subconciously knew it wasn't going to be ok. LOL, of course everything is perfect. I think it's kinda a way of protecting ourselves so that if something is wrong we will be prepared. I'm sure everything will be fine and once you see that little baby on the screen you will be so relieved and can just enjoying watching the little bub splash around in there, lol, it was the best thing ever once I realised it was in there and its heart was beating. Good luck, I will be thinking of you
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