Oh ladies...I put my mascara on this morning convinced I could have a 'blubber' free day...and your kind words have turned me into a 'panda' with mascara and tears running down my face...I look a sight! Thank you all so much...I wish there was a way to express how much your suppport means to me...just being able to express all my fears out loud and to be heard and understood is such a comfort and blessing...thank you xxx