Hi, I hope that things are OK withthis pg, things will get easier as you pass each milestone then you can relax. My eldest two are very close in age and whilst it was hard, once I knew things were established it was fine. Is there any way that you could have your so looked after by a friend or relative for a couple of hours on the days you don't work? I really appreciate the time I have for me when I am not working. I did find popping a film on for my eldest whilst I 'rested' on the sofa with him gave me a break.
Take care