Thats it, all the what ifs and maybe's become right there in front of you.
I am here if you ever want to talk xxoo
Thats it, all the what ifs and maybe's become right there in front of you.
I am here if you ever want to talk xxoo
It took me about 6 weeks to bond with DD. I just couldn't believe I could give birth to and keep a living baby girl. I took a while to overcome the fear of loss and losing her. In the end I made a decision to love and embrace every moment with my precious girl. I have no control over where life will take us, I can only control how I feel and I choose to embrace every minute with the blessings I have and not dwell on what I have lost and what I could lose.
Its blinking hard hun.
I really struggled the first 3ish months part of it was because of the normal newborn stuff but I had a lot of demons I hadn't faced after losing DDD (dearly departed daughter).
I found out her sex early on so I had some time to get use to the fact I was having another girl straight away after losing one but I hadn't thought about how it was really affecting me.
I SHOULD have gone to see someone but I didn't and gradually over time it has been easier to deal with but I have a very different kind of sadness now. Every milestone I DD1 makes I wonder what DDD would have been like.
I miss DDD SO much but I am ETERNALLY grateful that she sent DD1 to us because she is perfect. If DDD hadn't left, DD1 wouldn't be here ... it all worked out JUST how it was meant to in the end and thats something to be rejoyced.
Nae x
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