It took me about 6 weeks to bond with DD. I just couldn't believe I could give birth to and keep a living baby girl. I took a while to overcome the fear of loss and losing her. In the end I made a decision to love and embrace every moment with my precious girl. I have no control over where life will take us, I can only control how I feel and I choose to embrace every minute with the blessings I have and not dwell on what I have lost and what I could lose.