Teni - I am with Jo and B - it's pretty normal to want to meet Cookie, NOW, especially as the pregnancy discomforts increase and you draw nearer to your EDD. But I understand your feelings, had them myself not that long ago.... I kind of convinced myself that I WOULD enjoy every week of my pregnancy and I got to 40, and then it was time for HB to make her entrance, fashionably early. Keep strong, you can do it.
Laney - thankyou... I love the new photo of Brexton - look at his dark hair! What a cutie! Glad Grayson is going well with his new routine. It must be challenging to get more than one little one out the door. Glad DH got back from the middle east ok.... he's not going back any time soon is he?
We are finally going to inter the ashes for all our bubs on 23rd Feb. Will be a big day. 2 years to the day and time that our lives were so dramatically changed- when we truly knew love and heartache all at once. As you know it feels like only yesterday..... but I am so glad to have emerged from the shadow of the desperate and overwhelming grief. I am a bit worried it will all descend on me again on Wednesday... really it's like having their funerals all over again. But ... it's time.
I just couldn't face the prospect of doing it while I was pregnant with Hannah, as in all honesty I truly didn't believe I would bring her home, and it always seemed that before then I was pregnant or in the pit of despair with grief and didn't have the money either.... it's all a very expensive business really. But, the time is right now.
We've ( well I am making arrangements, DH says he doesn't know what he wants and has always been happy with what I've done before he says), had some balloons printed with an inscription - "beloved babies, Amelia, Nicholas and Sophie - loved eternally - fly free" So we'll be releasing some balloons - all different colours - just like a rainbow. I've also arranged to release some butterflies. I am going to prepare a little booklet, with some special words from DH and I in it, we've done one for each of the funerals, so why not for the interrment? We have some music to play. I have asked a friend to take some photos. It will only be DH, myself and Hannah, but I would like some photos to remember the day. It will be outside, rain, hail or shine. It's pretty hot weather here at the moment.
Jo - I am soooooooooooooooooooo excited for you. I remember asking my obs to take my stitch out at 37 and he resolutely said no 38. Even an extra week can make a difference. Did you have steroids to help bubs lungs develop the surfactant ( in case bubs came early)?
Beata aka Miss B - I am so disorganised when it comes to planning - actually no - the planning is good, I just have trouble with the deciding what I want to do. GL with organising Cam's 1st birthday... I am already thinking vaguely about Hannah's and still have no idea.
Powelly - how are you going? You've gone quiet.....
AFM - well for about 90 mins today I thought I was mad to be wanting to TTC again..... little miss Hannah was just overtired or a bit hot, and she was grizzling and crying. I am ashamed to say I did raise my voice a little after an hour - telling her she was just being silly and it was enough. But then I picked her up and wiped away the tears from her blotchy red face and we had a shower together. Anyway, about 20 mins after the shower, she managed to drop off to sleep after a quick feed ( afterall all that grizzling is tiring. I would prefer her not to have her afternoon nap at 4.30pm but she needed it, and it would be cruel to her and intolerable to me to try to stretch her out to a later time to fit in with our usual routine. Ahh I hear her ... short nap I guess.
I suppose I should've explained better... I don't really want to get Cookie out ASAP, it's only an idle fantasy at best. There's no way I'll be agreeing to an induction unless they give me a very good reason I know he/she needs to stay in until we're both ready, I just selfishly want to meet my baby. Not this week though. The "eviction papers" won't be handed over until mid next week, once Ianto's birthday is over and done with.
Some of you might have seen it on FB, but they've stopped asking me about induction () and now I just have to have weekly CTGs and fluid checks. It's better than what I was going to suggest if they brought up induction again, so I'm quite happy
Dory, if I'm not on over the next couple of days, happy birthday to your Amelia
Dory, wow, anniversaries are hard, sometimes harder when you have a baby in your arms as you know the true extent of what you lost. My heart is with you as you remember your gorgeous angel and know you will get through the day as strong as you can be.
Teni - That's really exciting about less induction talk. And I think we all sympathise with why you were saying you wanted your bub out. I felt the same way with my DS. I just wanted him safely in my arms and when I got to 37 weeks I was like "just get him out" but he stayed another two weeks and surprised me at 39 weeks. Try and keep your mind busy, do some relaxation etc and it won't be long before you have your precious bundle.
Laney - glad to hear Grayson is going well! And that the clots seem to be clearing up :-)
As for me, just taking one day at a time. Bub is moving a lot now which is so reassuring and as I'm still not showing at all, it's nice to know there is something in there and that feeling exhausted, emotional and sick is all for a reason :-) I have my 19 week scan coming up in three weeks and feel so nervous about it. It was at that scan we were told we were having a son, and then that he was very ill and I still remember wanting to vomit on the ultrasound bed. I knew this stage would be hard but I'm finding it harder this time around. I guess as I said before, now that I have DS I truly know what I lost first time around. Also had a scare over the weekend with a terrible low pressure pain "down there", It felt like bub's head was literally hanging in the birth canal. I rang the hospital who said that unless there was cramps and bleeding, that hopefully all would be fine. So I turned online and started freaking out that I was having symptoms of incompetent cervix. Didn't sleep a wink that night! Oh the joys...
Emotionally, doing better. I still have my days but the happy/less stressed ones are outweighing the worried/nervous ones. Big hugs to all :-)
Sorry i havn't had a chance to get in here. But i would like to tell you all that on the 11th Feb at 10.10pm little Sophie Ann entered our lives by emergency c/s, weighing 4.3kg (9lb 8oz) 55cm long and a 34.7cm HC.
I would like to thank each and everyone of you for helping me through this pregnancy, i don't know how i would have got through without you! Thanks again
A MASSIVE congratulations to you Bec on the birth of your darling girl!!!! Well done, what a good size she was too
Dory - I hope your day goes well tomorrow. It sounds like you have made some lovely plans for the anniversary and the balloons sound beautiful. I will be thinking of you and your angels tomorrow with much love xxx
Powelly - it is good to hear you are having more good days than bad and hopefully that continues for you, especially after you have a good scan in 3 weeks. Just for some reassurance, I have IC and never had any feelings or signs that my cervix was failing till it was way too late so stay away from google!!
Teni - yay for no more induction talk!
Nothing to report here; my belly button has officially disappeared and I am getting the ligament pain radiating down into my thighs now so its all fun, fun, fun
OMG - my heart just skipped a beat when I saw the notification that you had posted....
OMG I am so excited or you.
Welcome to the world precious Sophie Ann .....
I hope that Mum and Sophie are doing well.
Very good weight and length. Can't wait to hear more details, when you can manage it and if you want to share.
Hope that you are recovering well from your caesarean.... and hope the emergency part wasn't too stressful for you.
Go gently on yourself as you start this new journey.
Powelly - arghh. stay away from Dr Google.... never a good thing unless you are looking for something specific. I, like Jo aka AngelLuke'sMum - have incompetent cervix, well probably. For me it meant I went into spontaneous premature labour - contractions, a show.... although for me there were other things going on too - infections blah blah blah.
If you're worried, go up to the hossy and get checked out. Good to call them too though like you did, but if that reassurance isn't enough, head on up to the hossy.... no harm to go up.
Good news on a scan coming up though for you, 3 weeks seems like an eternity.
Miss B - is DH back from China yet?
Teni - yay about no more induction...
Jo - are you on bed rest or modified rest with your stitch? If so I wanted to ask how you managed with Kaitlyn? I'll be needing some tips when my time comes again.
Well errands all done.... just have to finalise the little service booklet. The candles look really good. Will post some photos in my album here on BB.
CONGRATS SAMCOUGAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's lovely news that Sophie has arrived safely into your arms. What a big girl! Enjoy the lovely stage of getting to know each other and as Dory said, be gentle on yourself :-)
Angellukesmum and Dory - thank you so much for your advice and sharing your stories. I think all the niggles I'm having is bub moving from my pelvis up and out. I feel sooooo tight in my lower abdomen and as if there's no more room and today I've had sharp stabbing pains on and off so I'm sure that's it. I'll go for a walk later and hope that the movement somehow budges bub up and out of the pelvis. Hmmm, sounds interesting...
I suppose I should've explained better... I don't really want to get Cookie out ASAP, it's only an idle fantasy at best. There's no way I'll be agreeing to an induction unless they give me a very good reason 
I know he/she needs to stay in until we're both ready, I just selfishly want to meet my baby. Not this week though. The "eviction papers" won't be handed over until mid next week, once Ianto's birthday is over and done with.
) and now I just have to have weekly CTGs and fluid checks. It's better than what I was going to suggest if they brought up induction again, so I'm quite happy 
Thanks again
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