Powelly - hugs... I know what it's like to be so petrified... I hope you find a way to quiet your fears, not silence them..... really the only advice I have is just try to live in each moment and try not to think about the future. I know that's hard... and often I couldn't take my own advice, but it worked to at least make things manageable. What date in 2.5 weeks?

Teni - look at you girl 37 + 1 weeks....

Jo - are you still with us oh pregnant one or have you popped? Your stitch would have come out or be coming out very soon. Thinking of you.

Laney - How is Brexton and Grayson going?

Miss B - how are those plans for Cam's big firsty coming?

Sam - Day 18.. how's it all going with dear little Sophie ( great name too by the way, I meant to say that earlier).!!

AFM - well apart from Hannah and I both having a cold and Hannah being much more gracious about it than me... I feel miserable. How is it that she smiles and laughs when she has a cold and I feel miserable and want to curl in a ball? Oh well, today Hannah sat unsupported all by herself for longer than her usual few seconds, and played with some blocks at the same time. It's just so amazing to watch them grow and achieve things.... the look they get as they are so proud of themselves is pretty neat too. But it also reminds me, that my little baby bear is growing up....

Oh and Amelia's angel day and the interment of the ashes ceremony went well, sad of course, but it was time and it was beautiful. Had a friend take some photos, so will post some... I am hoping the photos reflect the sadness but peacefulness of the day. Haven't been back yet, due to being sick.... guess the first time will be one of the hardest. I am thinking we might release some more butterflies and balloons on Nick's angel day. The weather will be cooler and the butterflies might hang around a while longer.

Oh I saw a beautiful little lady bug today... it was awesome. After Amelia died, it seems lady bugs were always landing on me and staying.... and until today that was something I had forgotten. It was nice to be reminded.