Sunshine - it was the other thread... scream and shout all you want... like miss B said, big squishy hugs.

Tylers Mummy - good that you're getting excited. Thanks for asking after me, its very sweet of you.

Sky - be kind to yourself as you process your feelings about having another little girl... I could say some stuff but I think in the end it would just be me putting my own thoughts on to you and you don't need that. Just sit with your feelings a while. They are valid feelings and it's good to go through them now. Hugs.

Teni - you can convince Scott... but before you do, why did you think you wanted a gap of 3-4 years? Give cuddles to your princess from us.

It's weird how we all go through similar emotional responses to some things. I was petrified of going back to the hossy where Amelia was born, but I made myself go back a few times immediately after she was born and then later too, shaky legs, roiling tummy, not sure if I'd collapse or not. It was hard, but I wanted to overcome my fears. Afterall, it was the place where my first child was born. It was the place I first got to meet her, hold her, tell her I loved her and just gaze upon her pure perfection. I wanted to have those as memories too, and not just remembering it as the place my hopes and dreams came crashing down and the place where she died. So since then? I went back to the same hossy for Sophie's birth. Not for Nicholas as I wasn't admitted to hossy for his arrival. And then I went back to the same place for Hannah. Being a repeat customer the service was pretty good. The staff were all sensitive to us and kind with our tender little hearts. So my hope is that once you overcome the fear, that a little bit of the fear will be replaced by a little bit of tenderness for the place where you got to meet your darling little angels. Now when I go back I stop outside the birth suites and at each room we were in and tell Hannah a little story about each one.