beata, It sounds like you are getting some sleep at night. Twice a night feedings aren't too bad. Try to get in a nice nap during the day, they always helped me. I still have some of those panic moments when I am the first one to get up. I am used to him getting me up nice and early.
Ladies, what do you do for angel days? Shelby's angel day is in a couple of weeks and Parker's is shortly after Grayson's B-Day. I was not up for doing anything last year other than sitting around and worrying about Grayson. DH has to work on Shelby's day but he has a nice long weekend (he only has 2 weeks of vacation and he is going to need that when this bub is born). I was thinking about making a little garden...I don't know. What happens to that garden when we decide to sell this house?
Laney - I have started a little collection for each angel baby...mostly 'willow tree' ornaments...teddies I was given etc....and also light a candle at Church...5th May is our first angel baby's due date...tomorrow...I remember all the dates...don't know if that's a good thing or not sometimes.
On a happier note...only 10 days to go...bub is still very busy and doesn't seem to care that there's no room...really hurting me...my ribs are soooo sore! Can't stop cleaning and seem to be functioning on next to no sleep really well...maybe it will be less than 10 days...wouldn't that be lovely
Ellie, I do have a collection of ornaments for both of my little angels. Hallmark comes out with a remembering a lost loved one ornament every year. The year we lost Shelby it was a clam shell with a pearl inside. It was so perfect. I also have some willow tree angels. It is nice to have something that you can always look at and remember. I feel like I have to remember all of the dates because no one else will. I have been so emotional the past couple of weeks. I don't know if it the pregnancy hormones or the upcoming BIG scan. I just want to do something special for the dates this year.
It is so exciting that you only have a few days left until you get to meet your second little miracle baby. Are you all ready? Any names picked out?
So emotional today...got through the anniversary of our first angel babies due date...bub was so quiet all day and worried me so much I drank a can of coke just to get him/her moving...then I paid for it all night!!!
My happy news for the day is my missing furkid was found this morning and I've just bought her home...now I'm ready to have bub as we're all home safe together...DH is convinced I will go into labor now she's home
Laney - do you believe no names! We have lists...and just when we think we've got one something will come up to put a 'cloud' over it...I think it will be like with Miss A...we knew as soon as we saw her...hope that happens this time!
I'm sorry I haven't been around lately I've been very busy lately, especially with this baby coming up to the same gestation that we lost Isabel. It means there isn't a week when I'm not either at the doctors, hospital, ultrasound clinic, pathologist, psychologist or a combination of them. On a positive note though I'm now to tired for the nightmares and we got to go away for 2 days this week and I also cut back on work.
Ellie - I'm glad your furkid came home safe and sound, we lost our furbaby just before we lost Isabel (on our wedding anniversary no less) it was horrible.
Hi gals - its good to have a moment to stop and check in. Very unusual for me to be so busy. It made a nice, but tiring change.
Laney - all good here! Thankyou so much for asking. When is your next scan.... hmm no let me remember 17th right? Not long now!
Beata - you make me laugh so much. I have some funny visuals of Cameron scaring himself with his noisy bodily functions. Wow, 6 weeks, so long yet still so tiny. I bet so many things have changed since those first weeks.
KAM - those dates are hard. Know what you mean about lots of appointments. For me its easier though cause I am not at work, and am at home resting, so I am glad of the distractions. Hope you get through ok. My most recent scan date was on the same gestation that Sophie was born and died, so it was a pretty anxious time, leading up to the scan. Go as gently as you can.
Ellie - so glad your little furry one is home. How long were they gone? One of ours escaped once and was gone all night. Of course DH and I were scouring the neighbourhood in the wee hours trying to find him ( I was worried he was hurt somewhere) and low and behold the cheeky monkey came home when he got hungry. I was waiting up for him, thinking the worst and crying. He's an indoor cat and his little adventure scared him so much, he has never really tried to escape again. I can understand that you would have been beside yourself. Just glad your pet s safely home. Good luck with the next week or so. I must be unbelieveably exciting and frustrating all at once.
What date is your caesar booked in for?
Katie girl - you must almost there too! Thinking of you.
Klee - about the scans - I asked the sonogapher and she said the later scans were often not as accurate as the earlier scans in determining bubs size - something to do with bubs developing bone density and the sound waves of the ultra sound not reflecting in ways that allow for super accurate measurements.
StarBright - how are the move preparations going? Did you find somewhere in Canberra?
AFM - I have had a genuinely fantastic and positive week. On Monday night DH felt the baby kick, not just move, for the first time in any of our pregnancies. It was just the most awesome moment. I had been waiting with a lot of anticipation of DH being able to experience it but didn't expect it until a bit later, let alone just before 20 weeks. His face was just priceless - joy, wonder and completely awestruck. He didn't know whether to jump for joy and keep his hand on my belly for more. it was truly a magical moment. A really good lead up to the scan the next day.
Scan went really well. I was more anxious than I realised ( wondered if I had the squirts again, but the urge passed after we saw the baby in the scan....so anxiety it was). It was awesome. No bad news, all good. Baby was very active so the scan went for longer which meant more time to look at bubs. There was a big ole yawn, hands up to the face, kicking, turning, squirming and even a "kung fu panda" karate chop move. No waving, well not that we saw. It was so exciting for me to actually feel the baby moving and seeing the movements on the scan. The sonographer was really good too, she had had a loss at 19 weeks, so we were able to talk about it both of our experiences, which most sonographers don't want to even go near that topic.
Baby has been moving fairly consistently since Monday, in more definite and discernable movements rather than just the flutters.
My mum has been visiting for a few days and hence my abscence from BB. It was so nice to have her visit, but I was so tired last night I was asleep by 8.30pm. Unheard of for me! I did wake at 11.30pm though and spent a few hours awake ( knitting my new hobby - my mum taught me) but the sleep I had for the first few hours was just so deep and refreshing. I feel so much better today.
I am loving the cooler weather - cats are way more snuggly ( although if I get up to go to the loo, I return to find the "warm" sport where I was laying has been stolen by a furbaby, apparently sound asleep in just minutes! It is so much nicer to snuggle with DH under the blankets and make DH late for work by pleading "just one more minute...". Although the little heater inside means I hardly feel the cold and hardly need any blankets.
Anyway, I could go on for ages. It is so nice to feel some hope, just genuine hope and happiness rather than the stuff I force on myself to get through. I don't want to let these feelings go.
Laney, I am slowly starting to get slightly longer stretches of sleep these days. Last night, Cameron slept from 12 am to 4 am, but fed at 11 pm so went 5 hours between feeds. He is getting better slowly. Today I took him to the doctor as I thought he had a cold, as he had a blocked nose and he was breathing pretty heavily with a funny noise in his chest, but it turned out to be fine, instead he has a pretty nasty thrush in his mouth. What the???????? How do babies get it? I haven't breastfed for 4 weeks now. I thought babies get thrush from breast feeding
Ellie, big hug for your angelversary today. I know those days can be very emotional and tough. Hooray for finding your furkid! I didn't have a name for Cameron either, he was Baby Anderson for a couple of days in hossy! GL for your upcoming birth!
Kam, big hugs hun. When I passed the 21 week mark with Cameron I was sooooo relieved. Every week after that was such a bonus. My psychologist also helped to keep me sane!!
Dory, I am so so happy your scan went well and you are feeling so good about it. About time you really started to enjoy this pg!!! And woohoo for bubs first kicks!! That is the most awsome feeling in the world, isn't it? You are going to laugh at me but I really miss by big belly and my kicks now! I look at pg women now and I'm jealous of their bellies
Hi to everyone else in here, hope everyone is travelling nicely.
dory, i got a little worried when you didn't post right after your scan. I am so happy to read that everything was great. Those first movements are so exciting! It was so nice when DH got to feel Grayson kicking. He never experienced that with Parker or Shelby.
beata, I think babies can get thrush anytime. I do believe that it is more common with breastfeeding but just happens sometimes. I hope he is feeling better. Are you still thinking about adding another baby to the mix soon?
Kam, I know how stressful it must be for you right now. I hope your doctors are giving you the extra visits and scans that you need right now to help you stay calm and positive.
Ellie, so sorry that the EDD for your first angel was so hard. I think the stress and worry for your soon to be earth angel #2 adds so much more emotion to these difficult days. I hope you have a nice and restful few days left with bubba inside. Are you already thinking about when you are going to be posting another BFP in here?
AFM, a little over a week until my next scan. I am already starting to get very nervous about that 17 week scan. I have no idea how we got this far along already. It has been going fast so far.
Laney - A BFP!@?! Oh my goodness that gave me a good laugh for the morning hehehehe! I couldn't go through the emotional rollercoaster again...wouldn't be fair on the these two little ones...Miss A has been through one pregnancy with me and I think that's more than enough emotional stress for one little girl
Have hit that desperate stage now...6 more sleeps...so close yet still so far...terrified that something could still happen to this little one...praying like mad for one healthy baby...nothing to indicate that it won't be but it's not over till it's over...and I'm soooooo ready. Don't know what I would do with out you ladies...thanks so much for listening...again xxx
Sorry for no personals...am reading and following...but just surviving at the moment
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I am about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant after our son was stillborn in February. We conceived after my first AF which was quite a shock but obviously a very welcome one.
Even though I am very happy and relieved to be expecting again, I'm a bit sad that it feels so different this time around. I seem to have no excitement yet, just a nagging anxiety. I have no real symptoms at all yet which obviously makes it harder to accept. I am having a dating scan in about 10 days and I don't think I will really believe it until I see that little flicker!
Dory - it was really wonderful to read your post, I am so happy that you had good news and that you are feeling kicks!
Laney, I wish I could convince my DF to try again this year (we have to do another full round of IVF as we have no frozen embryos left) but I've brought up the subject a couple of weeks ago and my poor DF almost had a heart attack!!!! Cameron was only 6 weeks old at that stage, and he was like, 'Hello!!!!!!!!!!! you're still whingeing about the lack of sleep with this one and you want ANOTHER one????' Ha ha. I really thought we'd go again towards the end of this year, but it's unlikely. He said next year or the one after! I told him I'm almost 40 (I am now!!) so lets not wait long. See what happens! Every time I see a preggy belly, I want one! GL with your upcoming scan hun, everything will be fine!
Ellie, you're soooooo close now hun!! Can't wait for your announcement! I remember about 3 weeks off giving birth, I was so worried something would still go wrong. A week or so beforehand, I was so desperate to have Cam out!! I thought he would be safer on the outside than on the inside. When he came out screaming the op. theatre down, I was so relieved I cried like a baby. You know everything will be just fine hun, be patient and know that we're all behind you and on the count down!!
CherlieB, helloooooooo lovely girl!!! Welcome to this wonderful thread. I tend to post in this one from time to time and in my baby buddies thread. Congrats on 5 1/2 weeks hun!! Woohoo!!! Don't worry hun, I felt exactly the same when I fell pg with Cameron. I was so excited with Joshua, but scared silly with Cam, always expected for something to go wrong again. I did feel better after my 12 week scan and then after my 22 week scan. When I hit the 30 week mark, I was sooooo relieved! GL with your dating scan hun!!!! And thanks so much for your birthday wishes, I am no longer 30 something! Big cry.......
Hello to all my other lovely friends! Cameron has been so much more settled these days after I started to treat the oral thrush. I have changed him to the previous formula, as the Novolac Colic was giving him really hard poos. We went out for my birthday on Saturday as Sunday would have been full on and people would have been busy with their own things, and after hardly no sleep for almost 8 hours, he was so over tired he was screaming for hours the poor love!! He did catch op on his sleep that night though He's now feeding 4-5 hourly, which is great. Off for his 8 week MCHN app. tomorrow. He'll be 8 weeks then!! Woohoo!!!!
Charlie, Welcome to our little group. I am so sorry to read about your little boy. What did you name him? Congratulations on falling pregnant again so quickly. The anxiety is unfortunately something that we all feel. We will be here for you when ever you need some extra support.
Ellie, I know exactly how you feel about being so close yet so far away. Even the morning of my c-section I was still worried. The nurse came in to hook me up to the monitors and then proceeded to turn the volume off! She was of course barked at to turn it up so I could hear Grayson's HB. So close now. I can't wait to read the news. Are you on Facebook so I can see some pics when the time comes?
AFM, I am starting to worry. I feel myself not wanting to leave the house as much. I am trying to fight it. I do not want to fall into a depression like I did while pregnant with Grayson.
I hope everyone had a nice Mother's day remembering angel babies, loving earth angels, and rubbing their growing bellies.
Laney - Thankyou so much for your support by thinking of me and worrying. It seems we all do a LOT of worrying in here. Not long now til your scan. You're right - time has flown, but it doesn't feel that way when you are living each moment though. I hope that you are able to fight off the depression, I guess it is a worrying sign that you are feeling like you want to just withdraw. Is there a chance of you going to a Dr or a counsellor? Just someone else that you can touch base with that might have some different ideas or strategies to help you through. I think it's a really positive sign that you've been down that road before and have decided you don't want to do it again. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I often wonder if I will get depression in this pregnancy. I am at home, mostly on bed rest, mostly alone, cut off from the life I once knew and have suffered multiple losses over a relatively short period of time. I have read that multiple losses are certainly a risk factor for PND, so why not antenatal depression? I know I am less enthusiastic about a lot of things, now even compared to when I first stopped work in Feb - hard to find the motivation to really do anything at times. Guess the idea is to just keep a watch out and ask DH and others to do so too and take some action if I don't feel right. I am not saying I think I have depression at the moment, but am more curious about whether I will given all the risk factors present. One of the things that helps me feel grounded is the cats. Who would think it? They keep me company, they do crazy cat things - just the normal cat things, but it's makes me laugh and smile, they often seek me out when I am feeling particularly glum - either for a pat or to tell me they would like some food please. Hard to feel like I am the centre of the universe with 3 plaintive cats all asking for me to give them food. The looks on their earnst little faces is just gold.
I am glad your DH got to feel Grayson kicking. Not only that he has gotten to parent him too. That is very special. He will get to do the same with this bub too. I am surprised that I have felt the baby's movements so strongly so early. The obstetrician says its a mixture of knowing the sensations I am trying to detect and this not being my first pregnancy to get to a more advanced stage.
Not long til your scan. 7 days - so is it Monday next week? I am excited and nervous for you.
Ellie - OMG - that is soooo exciting, but I can imagine still terrifying. I can't wait to kick fear and anxiety to the kerb but that's a long way off yet. I can't wait to hear your BA and birth story. Believing in you!
Beata- Happy birthday sweetie! You had me ROTFL with your DH's reaction. I understand where you are coming from,( strike while the iron ( body) is hot!). I am already thinking about "an addition", and I am not even holding my earthside baby in my arms.... I haven't told DH that yet though. It's not that I am really thinking about being pregnant again, but more generally in terms of I hope to try again and I hope to be holding an earthside bubba, screaming down the birthing suite!
CharliB - Good to see you in here! 5 weeks is still so early! I hardly ever feel strong symptoms that early on. I bet you thought TCC ot the 2ww did your head in? Ha, now the real fear and anxiety begin. As you probably know, my strategy is to take one day at a time and try to find one thing each day to be thankful for. It's the way that I find works more often than not for me to get through. It's not perfect and it doesn' mean there is no fear or anxiety - for me it just means more often than not, I can manage. That's all I am aiming to do, manage. We all find our own way. I suppose the one difference between TCC and now is you have your BFP, so every day there is one very special miracle to be thankful for, though the fear and anxiety that your little miracle will be taken away can be paralysing at times, the thing to remember is you still have your little miracle. And that is truly a blessing.
Thinking of you at your dating scan.... exciting and nerve wracking. What date is it?
AFM - well the euphoria of last week has worn off and I can feel the fear and anxiety starting to press in. It could be just as simple as this is my first Monday home alone in 3 weeks ( I have been spoilt lately). I am hoping that's the case and I bounce back tomorrow. It's not all doom and gloom, but it feels a bit like it after the high of last week. I had a couple of nasty dreams last night, which didn't help. One woke me up at 1.30am and I was awake for a couple of hours after that, trying to get back to sleep. It was innocous really in a really bad thunder storm in my dream there was an exceptionally loud thunder clap, which woke me up with my heart racing but it obviously got the adrenaline pumping enough to stop me from getting back to sleep quickly. The next dream was quite unsettling. Giving birth to a very prem baby, who wasn't in NICU and who I kept forgetting to look after properly. DH says there is no way I need to worry about me not looking after the baby properly, but the images and the feelings in the dream were so very real, and still are. It's been a bit hard to shake the images and feelings from the dream. Maybe I should go and get myself a hot drink from the "outside", just to get out of the house and break the connection? I had the second dream just before DH's alarm went off this morning.
I think I will go and treat myself to a hot drink. There is a cafe not too far away that I can drive to and not have to walk very far to the door and not have to face the hordes at the shopping centre. Hmmm my tummy just rumbled too. Wonder what I might have for lunch. These are the big decisions that occupy my days these days. \
Thanks so much for your wonderful support ladies! I am at the can't leave the house stage...can't focus on anything other than bub and Miss A....phone off the hook...terrified of something happening...or catching some horrible bug...only 4 more sleeps...OMG!!!
Sorry i have been MIA for a while. I am having some issues and i just couldnt bring myself to post in a pregnancy section.
For the last 12 days i have been bleeding and i am so stressed out about it. I have had 2 trips to the ED and 2 scans and no one can tel me why i am bleeding or even where it is coming from. the good news is Bub seems very happy and healthy in there! And that does put my mind at ease... but only until i see the blood again. Anyway sorry about tthe all me post... i have been reading posts but there is WAY too many to catch up on!
Mummyof4 - of sweetie - sending you big hugs through this very stressful time. I know what it feels like to bleed ( perhaps not for 12 days) but I understand it is just so terrifying. Sending you lots of strength and prayers.
Thanks Dory. I am 10 weeks now.. feels like it is dragging on forever. the bleeding is really weird. i dont bleeda t all during the day but about 8pm at night it starts lasts for a couple of hours and then stops again till the next night. And even thought i am expecting it, it is horrible to see it and it scares me still every night
Wow just noticed you have a ticker!!! Looking good!!
Hope you had a wonderful day.
He's now feeding 4-5 hourly, which is great. Off for his 8 week MCHN app. tomorrow. He'll be 8 weeks then!! Woohoo!!!!
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