Laney - thanks for the tips. The concept of a cerlage (stitch) has been discussed extensively for this pg and I am still not decided as for me it seems risk of infection is equally an issue. Haven't sopken too much about progesterone, but will when I see the ob in 3 weeks.

Klee - thanks sweetie Thanks for telling me about Phoebe. It does feel like I will never get there, underneath all the bravado, that it my abiding fear. I am for the most part really thankful for each day of this pg.

Today, wasn't as hard as I thought it might be. I was more affected leading up to today than on today. DH took the day off work and I am not working, so we slept in and snuggled ( no BD for me, way too scared) and then went for brunch and then a walk in the park and along the river. In the arvo we snuggled again, looked through our photos, shared some precious memories and listened to the songs we had played for the funeral service. In the end as sad as I am, the most significant memory for me today is just how much our precious girl was loved and how much she gave to us in those fleeting joyous but heartbreaking moments. I am so blessed to have been given such a precious gift. So today? DH and I honoured our baby girl by living, and remembering her. I had day dreams of doing something more symbolic, but in the end, for me, it felt contrived and what we did suited us.

JLK - good luck with your scan.

Hi to everyone else, I am not feeling that talkative. Take care and catch up soon.