very scared - desperate for reassurance

**Celsie** · June 5th, 2008, 09:26 PM

BW - I've never lost a precious little bundle, but there were times when I was pregnant with DS that I thought I had. My DH rang the local hospital and the midives there were more than happy to do an ultrasound and use a doppler to put my mind at ease. Is it possible for you to do the same?

**Junglemum** · June 5th, 2008, 09:51 PM

I feel for you BW, it is just the worst isn't it?

You almost expect the worst as a kind of protection mechanism. I know i did. I relaxed a little after 12 weeks, but it wasn't until i was holding my DD in my arms that i finally stopped worrying.

Everytime my boobs stopped hurting or a i wasn't hungry or i had a cramp i would think it was the start of another m/c, but like the girls have said the symptoms can easily come and go.

When i was preg with my last pregnancy i tried really hard to focus on the positive. I would lie in bed every night and imagine my little jelly bean snuggling down in my cosy womb. I really believe the mind is a powerful thing. So, as hard as it is, try and think good, strong baby growing thoughts for your little one growing inside you.

Thinking of you.

**StrawberryMumma** · June 5th, 2008, 09:54 PM

Hey BW

I'm so sorry you are feeling so stressed hunny. The worry is almost unbearable at times isn't it..

Throughout all three of my pregnancies I've had moments where the nausea has completely disappeared, as well as the sore boobies and I could SWEAR that I just wasn't pregnant anymore..Your mind can play terrible tricks on yourself, especially after having miscarriages.

Just hang on matie, I'm sure bubby is just fine.

(Oh and the doppler thing as Celsie mentioned, I have one at home and got a hb on my little one the other day, at 11 something weeks..so maybe it might help you to have one too, for when you are futher on..BUT in saying that, I know they aren't for everyone and can cause more stress but it's just a thought anyway..)

Thinking of you sweet xx

**butterfly_warrior** · June 6th, 2008, 06:25 AM

After my little melt down last night I feel asleep and dozed for a bit in front of the TV. Quite unusual for me. It did mean that I was asleep when I usually need to start hassling DH about dinner, so dinner was really quite late last night. By the time we'd cooked what I felt I could eat, I got about two bites into it and realised it wasn't going to go down and stay down. Last night's dinner ended up being an apple pie with custard.

I have woken up this morning feeling like hell again, needing to nibble on some biscuits before I can tackle breakfast... going to grab some maxolon soon... It makes me feel a bit more confident about things. Not completely confident, but certainly more confident than yesterday.

Thanks to everyone for being there for me... i think it's going to be a rough week, but we're through one crisis for now.

BW

**DiannaQ** · June 6th, 2008, 07:30 AM

Oh BW - so glad that the sickness is back - it's awful having that feeling of dread - trust me I can totally relate - spent yesterday getting internals done followed by an US at 5pm - this is all after only having an US done last Friday - I'd like to say it gets easier but for me I too live from one US to the next and then maybe even some in between - have faith in yourself and the higher being, we have no control over what's going to happen all you can do is look forward with hope - but again I can see your relief about feeling unwell this morning.

You're in my thoughts and prayers - I've got a good feeling about this one

**cheekyfrog** · June 6th, 2008, 07:39 AM

Not often we get to say this... But... Glad you're sick!!

Six sleeps until your appointment. You know you have a huge support squad on BB to get you through these times, don't you. Lots of love and special hugs.

**Muppity** · June 6th, 2008, 09:25 AM

Not often we get to say this... But... Glad you're sick!!

D

Ditto

Just think - once you have a parasite you have it for good LOL

**Lee** · June 6th, 2008, 10:34 AM

BW - it's so hard, early pregnancy - but I'm glad you're sick again - if that makes you feel better lol!!! Apple pie and custard - yuuuummmmoooo - you have given me a new craving and I've added them to my shopping list

Have a sicko throwo uppo kind of day

Keep breathing..........

Lee xo

**Kitt3n** · June 6th, 2008, 10:58 AM

I have woken up this morning feeling like hell again, needing to nibble on some biscuits before I can tackle breakfast... going to grab some maxolon soon... It makes me feel a bit more confident about things. Not completely confident, but certainly more confident than yesterday.

LOL, thats great news!!!!

**Inanna** · June 7th, 2008, 04:15 PM

Butterfly

I have been offline due to internet problems and only just saw this post.

I am glad you feel awful

!!!!!!!!!!

It is so incredibly difficult. I feel for you so badly - I was just like you are, but I wasn't blessed with m/s so every sign was turned inside out and examined top to bottom!!!!

Things will go like this - some days you will be crappy and other days you will feel fine. Sending you my love...

**BellyBelly** · June 7th, 2008, 04:18 PM

Morning sickness is so different for everyone... its never a good indicator of what's going on! With my first I had it from about 6 weeks to 15 weeks or so but my second only 11-13 weeks?! I had no other symptoms, go figure. I know its extra scary for you, understandably, but this morning sickness stuff is so unpredictable and is definitely not reliable!!!

Peach · July 9th, 2008, 05:25 PM

BW :: I was worried about my baby at one stage and rang my OB's widwife. She told me to come straight in to the hospital and she made sure she found a heartbeat. (She couldn't find it at first) which was scary!! I think I was around 12 weeks tho .. so perhaps its too early for them to do that. However in the future if you are at all worried. Go get some piece of mind! Thats what you py the ob thousands of dollars for!