hi jenna this is my 1st preg so i cant compare the feelings you are having and wh it is harder this time... i think it is prob bc you feel disempowered as all the care providers you have spoken to have an opinion diff to yours about what you should do for the birth... i hope you do find a pro VBAC OB if that is what you want so much. you are prob overly emotional bc of the hormones etc, i know i was quite teary about nothing at all (let alone dealing with the disappointing outcomes of yuor discussions on VBAC) in the 1st tri. I hope you have a happy and healthy preg, will be exciting when you can tell your kids and enjoy!
BTW I also didnt 'show' for some time but clothes got tight v early i think due to bloating...