Hi guys,

Well, i had my ultrasound last tuesday and all is well, no need to worry about an ectopic thank god.

I went to the hospital today to have a chat to the midwives and have a look around the hospital. also to gain info.

I've got two kids, both via c-section and was really hoping for a natural birth this time around if at all possible. It looks like i might not get to decide. I've been to 2 docs so far and both have said that they wont let me go into labor, it has to be a c-section

the midwife i spoke to has given me the name and number of an ob who isn't cut happy and may let me labor first. apparently he only does a c-section if its absolutely necessary. he's very much pro natural if it can happen.

anyway, i got the info pamphlets, was walking out to the car and burst into tears. no idea why. it stopped pretty quickly though, so i was composed before i got back in the car. my OH and kids were in there and my kids dont know im preg so i didn't want to be too much of a mess lol. i dont want to tell the kids until after im 13 weeks, just in case.

so, if i've been through it all before, why in gods name am i so scared??????

im doing okay, although morning sickness is a killer.

so, am i the only one? or is it natural to be scared out of your wits? lol

Jenna