Amen Dach.
I learned how much patience I never even knew I had.
I learned how I could be what i had previously thought was deaths door with illness and still carry on and be bright and cheerful.
I learned to trust and have faith in me.
I understood the need to stand in the doorway way after bedtime and watch a small person sleep.
I'm still pregnant but have learnt to love my pregnant body. I've learnt that regardless of your age (I'll be 42 next month) it really is possible to glow when pregnant and if I'd managed to have children when I was young I probably would've had a few as I'm taking to it so well (that idealistic view could of course change when I hit the delivery suite).
I have a 5yo step daughter and one of the earliest things she taught me (she's been in my life since she was 2) was not to be so afraid of germs. I can now sit on a public loo - I never could before but realised I had to do it when she was with me or else she'd end up with a complex about them. I can also share her food, and I don't stress about the sticky fingers that go in and out of the lolly bowl or the chip bowl. It just doesn't bother me anymore.
I can laugh at myself or make a fool of myself just to see my children laugh. I can love someone with such intensity it hurts even when they are driving me crazy!
I have learnt to laugh at so many little things.
I have become more selfless than I ever thought possible.
I have come to appreciate and love the person that my DH is more than I ever did before..... we have become closer and although I would never have a baby to repair a marriage, in our case it did help us both heal.
I haven't felt emotions so intensely ever before in my life..... and so many all at the same time! Such wonder, sadness, happiness, joy, ecstacy, frustration and love all at the one time!
I have learnt to like myself and to be proud of myself as a person, and in particular as a brilliant mother (most of the time!)
I have learnt that there is nothing better than the smile of your child.
I understand why a mother will give up everything to see her child light up with joy.
I have learnt that the most precious gift in the world is a hug from your child just because they love you.
I have learnt that I can cry,anywhere, anytime, just by thinking of my daughter! lol
She has taught me to appreciate each day so much more than I have ever done.
She has taught me how real the fear of loss really is, and to understand why we fight so hard to hang on
I have learnt that I actually have maternal instincts, I can actually be a good mummy, even though I doubt it every day!
I have leant that men truly do love the curve(and hang) of the breastfeeding breast *thanks god for that!*
Oh and what chloe and Sarah said - I don't think Ive been so dizzy sice I was 7 lol
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