Okay, I thought I was doing ok. But I'm just not. I constantly pull out my ultrasound, to check Little Bubba out again, and see the heartbeat chart, and I love it. But I always pull out the other scan, and look at Mini Bean too

This is very different to when it happened with my 3rd bub. At my doc app, I was told my uterus was very large, and she wanted a scan. We have twins in the family. A few days before the scan, I had a very heavy bleed, and they said to come in when it had stopped and they would make sure it was "all clear". I went in thinking I had lost my Bubba. Only for them to find a good little bub, but one lost one, almost completly gone, just a little muck left. So I never really felt that loss, just too happy I still had a Bubba!!!

But going so early, I have "seen" this one. The sac may be funny shape, but it is very much there, and very real now. I am dealing with this ok I think.

BUT, I cant stop feeling a bad feeling about my Little Bubba . I am more upset that he wont stay either, than I am about the Mini Bean, and that makes me feel so horrible.. I just cant shake the feeling that if mini bean leaves, rather than reabsorbing, he'll take Little Bubba too....

It feels SO stressing, just waiting....

I know my 3rd pregnancy bub stayed, and is perfect, but will I be so lucky again??? How many women go on to keep their 2nd twin??

Sorry this ended up so long....I would like to post my ultrasound pic, so you can see both my bubs before one leaves, but I dont know how...I feel I need to acknowledge minibean too, so I can concentrate on Little Bubba...