Sirenz, I'm not a smoker but I have seen my sister and a friend go through this battle many times. I just wanted to say how much I admire you as I know how hard this is. One thing my sister found useful was to do some counselling as when she stopped smoking all the emotions that she had suppressed each time she had a ciggie started to come out - that was the hardest part for her, dealing with all those emotions she had ignored. I hope you are able to get some wholistic support like that too.

Good luck - I also had a thought - perhaps you could ask the mods for a quitting smoking thread - I'm sure there are many who are going thru the same thing as you.