Thank you so much guys, I don't know what I would do without you.

I didn't really use FMU, as I woke up at 5am and went then, and then tested later when I got up at 9.30, but the last test I did before that (that was really dark) I did in the afternoon, so I would have def expected this one to be darker, esp as it is now 4 days later and HCG should be much higher.

I had my BT done on Fri and will ph my dr tomorrow and see if he can give me the results over the phone. I just hope all is ok, I am so worried.

And Kelly, I think I will stop testing now, although I was tempted to just drive to the pharmacy and buy another one! I thought maybe it would be darker again and ease my mind, but I will try to stay calm and just wait and see what happens.

DH is really worried too, I think he doesn't handle things as well as he pretends to sometimes, as he feels he has to be the strong one. We were at a wedding last night and he actually opened up to me a bit about how concerned he is too.

I still have all the symptoms- I feel sick, have a funny taste in my mouth and my bbs still hurt, but then I had them all last time and found out my baby had died a week before I had my scan, so I know I can't trust my body not to trick me.

I already have the form for an early scan, but haven't booked it yet as I feel that I am somehow jinxing myself if I make any plans, so I will just see what happens.

Marydean - that's a good idea. DH is out sailing, so I might watch a fave DVD and chill out a bit and try to forget about the mountain of housework I had planned to get done.

Thanks again guys - you are lifesavers.

Bun xx