Oh. My. God.


My sister is pregnant.

I want to be happy for her..... But I can't. She is due the same time as me.

So if all is well - she steals my thunder.....

If all is not well - she has a baby at the time mine is due..... How will I ever look at the baby without thinking of mine!!!

Cant think that far ahead.... But this is my worst nightmare.....

And I feel like the most horrible terrible cow for being so upset about it.