Sorry to sook but..

[bellelass]

No, you're not sooking! Half the battle is recognizing the patterns of thought and behavior you don't want to continue, and that's really hard. Good for you. Its really easy when depressed to isolate yourself an give in to the depression, which creates a vicious cycle. You can do something about it.

How far along are you? Is your partner in the picture? How old are your daughters (like, are they old enough to be able to do some things for themselves/understand to let you alone sometimes?)? What is your diet like, and do you exercise regularly?

That last one is really really important- I have literally walked myself out of depression before. If you make yourself get up and walk/work out/do some yoga/ anything that raises a sweat every day, or start off a few days a week, you'll be absolutely amazed how much better you feel. Diet is really important too, try to avoid stuff with lots of bad fat/empty calories/preservatives- that is, junk. Diet and exercise will help your body feel better, too.

Also, ask yourself why you feel so horrible and tired. If you just do, well, that's completely understandable- you have a family to take care of and you're pregnant. Allow yourself to rest when you need to- its best for you and the baby. If there are other reasons, try to get to the root of them, and address them. That goes a long way toward making you feel better, more in control.

I grew up with a mother who (from the kids' pov) constantly oscillated between lashing out unreasonably and closeting herself in her room. She justified (and still does) her actions by blaming depression, and by saying we were always trying her patience, that she didn't have that much tolerance, etc. The older I get and the more experience I have fighting depression myself, the less I see this as an acceptable excuse. I don't know your situation at all, I'm just trying to help you see from the girls' pov maybe. And besides, you're a good mum because you don't want to be that way and are trying to do something about it.

I hope you keep posting, there's so much good stuff here and lovely caring people.