starangelk: i'm not really sure, I think I just feel to numb at the moment, and I guess the only thing about waiting that i like is it gives me some sense of hope that yes things may be ok. What i am afraid of is how i'm going to react after I finally find out.
I don't know whether to be happy with how the Dr is handling it because I don't know what else to expect and don't have the emotional energy to be bothered finding out what are my other option at the moment.

Tanya: thanksxx and thats ok.