hi all and thankyou, but today wasnt as great as what I would have liked and hoped for. Had my u/s today now my hope feels dashed.
Bub is sitting at the 7th percentile.
Heres the comparison to 3wks ago.
BPD was at the 5th percentile and is now well under the 5th percentile.
HC was at the 40th percentile and now sitting at the 35th percentile.
AC was less than the 5th percentile, yet thankfully the only one that has improved is now at the 6th percentile.
FL was at the 19th percentile and now sitting at the 8th percentile
est fetal weight was 1203g at the 8th percentile and is now 1659g and at the 7th percentile.
They want to rescan in 2wks, yet I am anxious already.
They think that the BPD could be due to the position of bub, and may be inacurate, but the Dr wasnt the one that did the u/s it was a normal sonographer today, which I was a bit uneasy about. Would have been nice if the same DR had done the scan, yet he wrote the notes. sigh.
Saw the baby dr / OB who decided to tell me that he didnt want to worry me, but with bubs growth bub may have DS. I then replied and said that there has been no soft markers whatsoever. he then replied and said there doesnt need to be any softmarkers. (this ended up really worrying me, I feel so upset right now) I keep mentioning my last bub and how small she is, and how she is fine just small. Anyway Im hoping that my bub is perfectly healthy. He did say bub maybe just small.
Ohh and mentioned the headaches which he checked the BP and said it is rising alittle but still ok, yet wants me to see the GP on Thursday and Saturday to have the BP checked. He then also mentioned that if I have anymore headaches that are like what I have been experiencing to call the birthing suite so they can monitor me. He also had me do some BT's.
Then it was time to see the physcisian (sorry spelling) He looked back at little V's records and seems to think this bub is following V's patterns but said nothing we can do just try not to stress. Well yeah thats easier said than done. He wants me to see him in 4wks, wants me to have a rest from the DR's appts. Wow one Dr makes a huge difference.
The OB wants to see me next week, but again something different each time with delivery times. He goes on to say that he thinks 40wks would be fine then maybe 38-39wks due to c/s's. However he wants to see the next u/s to see how bub is going and also to keep an eye on me. He said if bub needs to arrive or something is wrong with me, or the both of us then he will deliver.
So there you have it, still none the wiser about delivery, yet when I wanted to be left until 40wks they were stressing, then they stress me and they want to push it back. I was feeling very excited about meeting bubs and now I just cant be excited anymore. I am praying that bubs is healthy and the next u/s in two weeks shows some great growth. I am so worried about being stressed out even more now and when bub arrives. I was put through so much with Little V, I just dont want to go through that again.
Im so sorry everyone for the downer. I think my lack of sleep is just going to get worse now. Hugs all
I am so scared, I would have done the CVS earlier on if they were going to bring this up now.
Oh hugs hun, what a stressful time for you (I know that is an understatement really). I hope you get some answers and positive news at your next scan. I also hope that you have restful sleep.
Hoping and praying that everything will turn out ok for you and your family. (easier said then done) but do try to keep your mind on other things, there is absolutely nothing you can do now, just follow your instincts and your heart. hugs
Oh honey what a stressful day! Hopefully bub is just mini like V, it's reassuring at least that bub is following her pattern and you know she is fine. And there was one nice dr Hoping bub is just another little pocket rocket and is healthy xxx
I just want to say Thankyou to everyone for your support. I have been feeling pretty down and really needed to think yesterday so didnt post. Thankfully my sister came over and we went out for the day, which helped get my mind of things which I also think i needed. I had cried most of the night Tuesday. Yesterday (I Know this is going to sound like a stupid thing to do} I told DH that if bub isnt ok and healthy that I would understand if he left. He is under enough stress with work and didnt want to add to it. Anyhow he just said he wasnt going anywhere and not to be stupid. Yet also said we need to think positive thoughts. I just said that it is so hard when they say these things, which plant the seed of doubt in your mind. He asked why they are starting up now and I showed him the u/s reports from this time and last time, then I showed him little V's ones so he could see how hers were. (I have them all set up in some folders, one from previous pg and one for this one. It was just easier to have it all set up like that especially with having so much in the way of records from U/S's and BT's etc. } I do have a history of small bubs, my oldest was born at 40wks weighing just 2.5kgs, and he is very petite in size, small boned etc, as is Little V who was only 2.38kg born by my dates 11days early. Yet they put her at 38wks born. So I am really clinging onto this, and praying really hard that bub is just small like my other two and thats it.
I am so not looking forward to the hospital stay at all now, especially after my experience with V and all the stress I was put through and what she was put through. I am honestly scared of going through the same this time. I am just not sure I have the energy for all that stress too. They had me in tears everyday throughout V's pgcy then everyday in hospital until I couldnt take it anymore and asked to go home, which they tried to delay. Yet got my way 5days later at 10pm at night. Even had the MW's home visits for more than a month several times a week (which I actually thought was pointless especially coinciding with the pead appts. Then on top of the pead appts and hospital appts for heart u/s's and kidney u/s's as well as GP appts we also had to see the Genetics Dr's once I was home with V, then all the rest since then with V.
I am so nervous even more now this time round especailly after seeing what V has gone through, yet also due to the GD and how it will affect bubs. I am just not sure how I am going to cope.
I just wish I had a crystal ball to tell me that bubs is fine, and not to worry. Ive been trying to eat a heap of fatty foods to try and get bub to gain weight, yet it just plays with the GD. Stupid I know, yet I am picking at straws right now. No matter what i do it doesnt seem like anything is helping.
Maybe it is all my fault that bub is having difficulty growing, maybe I was just selfish wanting to bring another bub into my family. You know i thought to myself when they told me I needed Thyroid tablets, then had GD, then needed to be on insulin that, thats ok aslong as it is all me (my problems) not bubs problems, and that I can handle it being me, as long as bub is ok, I can handle everything they throw at me in regards to my health. (I am expecting alot of people to tell me I was selfish to bring another bub into the world now, especially if bub does have something wrong) The ones that I am thinking of arent even interested in this bub now, so wouldnt surprise me.
Anyway thanks for letting me ramble on everyone, and i am sorry again for the downer post. Just need to get this off my chest.
I can't really offer any advice, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.
I've been told for 8 weeks now that my bub could have a chromosomal abnormality and been pestered for an amnio.
I got scanned a few days ago (I'm currently 30weeks) and my bub is sitting on the 8th percentile. Unfortunatley I'm not sure exactly what it means.
I know my bub is small, 2-3 weeks behind.
I'm not having an amnio, and I'm believing that my bub is OK.
I know its hard, and I've cried so much at the thought of bub having DS or some kind of disability.
But, you have to focus on the positives. Your bub is still growing, and if growth stopped you can safely deliver.
And the fact that you've had small bubs before, there most likely is nothing wrong at all.
Everythings going to be OK. Just gotta focus on the positives. They're hard to find at times, but they're there.
Gee Charlotte, I have been reading up on what you have been going through with your bub and I have to say, I feel for you. I will be praying all goes well for your little bub and yourself. Im sorry you have been going through such a hard time.
I am realy trying to keep up with the positives, and I am so glad to hear that you are clinging to all the positives too. It is really hard however when all you want to hear is good comments from our Dr's in relation to our bubs, with none of the negatives which seem to implant themselves more deeper down than the positives seem to. All we want is healthy bubs and seeming to get reminded of the opposite almost every week can get overwhelming, upsetting and exhausting.
I hope your little one gets to stay inside for a while yet, but we both know if our bubs are needed to be delivered early then it is for their wellbeing. We both dont have much longer to go before our little ones are here and with lots of luck we will both have wonderful outcomes.
Im sorry that you wont have bubs in the same hospital as you once he/she is delivered, but so glad you will get to stay at the ronald mcdonald house to be near your bub. Has to be a huge load off your mind apart from everything else you are facing.
ATM I am not sure if my bub will be with me after my c/s, as they have mentioned bub will need to be monitored in SCN once born to make sure there is no problems with breathing etc due to me being insulin dependant with GD. Have been told it all depends on bub.
Thankyou for your words, and for thinking of me, I too will be thinking of you. Praying all turns out well for the both of our bubs. Look after yourself gorgeous. hugs
Csab, I found with all our stress with our baby (which went up and down like a yoyo) that I needed to go to that dark place first before I could start to think positively again about things. It is completely understandable when you are in the throes of hearing awful stressful things at the hospital that you focus on these things. Particularly as you have been through a similar thing before it must bring up all sorts of feelings and fears. I would suggest to let yourself get as upset as you like, go there for a while. It is stressful, scary and hard, and it is fine that you feel all those things. I found that after I was so exhausted by worrying that I naturally started to focus on the more positive stuff, but only after I had really faced the other side of it. Then little by little the positives (like Charlotte mentioned - your baby is still growing, and V was similar size but OK), can start to shine out more. Give yourself some time and have a good cry whenever you need to if that is what helps.
I found talking to a genetic counsellor really helpful - is there one you can see at your hospital?
Andrea
Hi Cheryl. Wow I never knew before you had as many children as me.
Anyhow don't stress over bub. If you have a history of small babies then it will show up. Also sometimes between 32 - 36wks for some reasons unknown some babies slow down but then pick up again.
I had that with Samuel and daniel but it was worse with Tash as she didn't grow at all past 36 wks so was induced at 38wks and had to be resussed at birth. Placental breakdown. She is now a healthy 19 yr old, married and with her own son.
I know they all say that with GD you have bigger babies but not always.
I also have a friend who from 5 mths on was told her baby would be a dwarf as his measurements were way below normal. He was born perfectly sized and is a healthy little boy with big blue eyes, blonde curls and an active little chappy
I know I don't always trust my OBs scan measurements as the resolution on his machine is not as good as at the womens imaging clinic. A lot can depend on position, machine, technical expertise and genetics.
stress will not do your b/p any good and I reckon if will be high at your next check coz of course you are worrying.
big hugs and I'll be thinking of you and be here if you need to talk.
Jude
Oh hun I am so sorry they have brought this up now I know what it is like to suddenly be facing what could be DS so far into pregnancy.
I hope you get some time with bubs in surgery after the CS, I did get the first touch other than my OB bringing her out and a short cuddle, then she was going down hill, I could see it myself and had to be taken away to SCN, and I think you would be like me, and know that if bubs has to go they do and it is for the best, having been there before it was much easier the second time. And if they are showing signs like Miss A did, then the quicker they get them on o2, they can prevent HMD, and in the end Miss A was off the o2 by that night. Much better for them to go off for o2 quickly, then in my case, resulting in a transfer to a NICU hospital.
If you need to chat about soft markers, let me know, I know all of them for DS, and even if there are some it doesn't mean that DS is inevitable
I am so sorry I missed this earlier xxoo
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32wks 4days today. Now they decide to bring up DS
Hoping bub is just another little pocket rocket and is healthy xxx
I know what it is like to suddenly be facing what could be DS so far into pregnancy.
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