Awwwwwwwww big Nicole, I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Definitely talk to someone about how you are feeling, maybe even a chat to you MCHN if you have a nice one. I'm sure you will be able to cope when the time comes. Women/Mothers are amazing in that way, I think we adapt and manage far better in difficult circumstances than anyone.

And don't feel selfish in posting this, far better to post and get advice than to not post and feel the way you do.