Hi hun,
I hope things are a bit better for you at the moment.I have two children and am pregnant with number 3. This pregnancy being older and wiser i have done so much reading. With my first child i was happy and so is he aged 11;very happy go lucky and cheerful. 2nd child,miserable marriage,cried alot and as a result i believe second child is rebellious,clingy and very drama queen.
I have just finished reading on hypnobirthing and the process believes you do need to filter your thoughts, and everything you see and watch as it does impact upon the fetus. Some things of course are unavoidable and will upset you. but try and focus on the big picture. You and your beautiful healthy baby. I no longer watch the news or any ci programs on optus. and if anyone decides to share birth or child horror stories i just look at my watch and say"Woops-i have to go"and cut them short!
The other thing is sweety meditate and take yourself off to do things that nurture your soul. shop,smell flowers,walk barefoot in the garden or beach,play music,dance go for a swim. Nurture and love you and you are doing the very best you can for bubba.