Feeling so sick, tired and nervous about my scan tomorrow.

[*Beema*]

Big Squishy hoping that all goes well for you today.

that the MS gives you a big break very soon
xxoo

[Pretty Butterfly]

Oh sweets, I wish I'd seen this earlier.....

I know what its like babe... I was sooo scared before Harmony's scan, after Kanes.....

But you will be fine, and you and your gorgeous family have all my thoughts today babe.....I have a good feeling sweets!!!!!

[DaintreeDream]

Well I wish I had better news although it is not all bad.

We have a little baby, measuring to dates with a heartbeat of 153.

However the fold on babies neck is big, very big. It looks from memory bigger than what Matildas was .

They want me to go back at 2.30 today to see the specialist. He will have a good look and hopefully be able to give us a little more insight. They have recommended a CVS or Amnio, they may offer it this afternoon.

We said after Matilda that we would not bother to do the further testing again as it would not change our minds, we would go through with the pregnancy anyway however now I am considering having the test, I think I would like to know if it is the same chromosome deletion that Matilda has (they said it was a fluke that shouldn't happen again) or if it is down syndrome or something else, just to be prepared and to know what to look for in future ultrasounds.

We will not know more about the cleft and small jaw until the 18-20 weeks scan, these are the reasons Matilda has had so much trouble and why she was in hospital so long so there is still a chance that this will not occur again.

I am worried about wether I am going to able to have a VBAC or if baby is going to be taken to NICU straight away again or if I will be able to breastfeed, these are proberly selfish things on my behalf but things I need to heal.

I am torn at the moment, honestly I cannot believe that this is all happening again .

[Arimeh]

Oh honey

Don't think too far ahead ok? Wait till you see the specialist before thinking about anything to do with birth, bfing etc.

Wish I was there to give you it in person!

[rufalina]

Ohno... no no no... Not the news we wanted... Hope you are able to get better answers for the specialist this afternoon. xoxo

[Laranna]

DD, thinking of you today and I hope you get some better news from the specialist xox

[lilima]

I am really hoping that you get some more answers this afternoon. All the things that you are saying are natural feelings.
xxx

[Ginger]

i'm thinking of you DD, hope you get some better news this arvo xox

[ezymay]

Oh big big hugs DD!!! I'm sorry you have to go through this.

[hj1981]

i know its hard but try and stay positive until u get further results this afternoon!
Goodluck! i hope this afternoon goes better!

[ksp]

DD - just came across this thread and wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. I'm sorry you've had such a hard day and I hope that your appt this afternoon has given you some reassurance.

[Anila]

Hun, im not sure what i can say, but just wanted to let you know that i am here for you, i wish you and bub all the best, and pray it all works out ok, take care my dear friend.

[AwesomeFoursome]

I'm so so sorry you are going through this again. I hope everything goes okay with the specialist today. We are all here for you.