Hi Guys, on Tuesday (11th July) I am going in for my 20 week scan.

My main priority is the bubs is healthy!! But i am also a little anxious about the baby's gender, as you know i have 2 gorgeous boys, but i have to tell you that if they tell me it's another boy i am going to to get a little emotional.

I know it's selfish and wrong as there are many people who would give anything to have a child, but it is how i am feeling at the moment.

At the beginning of the pregnancy i really didn't care, just now it has dawned on me!!

I feel terrible!!!! But i am so scarred that i am going to end up crying at the Ultrasound and i totally want to avoid this!!