I understand as well. When I found out this time I was having a girl I had to go home & have a good cry. I was happy that she was healthy, but so upset that my dream of a little boy may never happen. DH is convinced this is it for us. I guess knowing was the best thing for me because I could deal with the grief before the baby comes & now that we have named her & have started organising her things I am much happier than I thought I would be.