Aside from issues with your birth, I think it can be harder to get excited about subsequent babies. You know how much hard work it is going to be. That is certainly the case with me. Any excitement about the new baby is tempered by reservations about looking after 2 kiddies and sleep deprivation.

I am using my not so great first birth as a learning experience. I'm doing a lot of preparation and I'm hoping I can have a better birth this time.

I don't think you can recapture the experience of expecting your first baby, so if you don't feel the same excitement about TTC, I think that is normal. I also think it is normal to be scared about looking after 2 babies.

Anyway, that is just my thoughts.