My turn to freak out. *may be distressing*

[Ginger]

yeah i have to agree with olive on this one. i felt less connected to my second pregnancy. i knew so much more. i was more aware of what could go wrong. the whole pg never felt as special, but i gotta tell you that now that he's here, he's the most precious little soul ever and i could not love him anymore than i do. i don't know what it is, i think part naievity (sp?) and excitement in the first pg help you through it a bit more iykwim?
it's hard not to worry with everything that's been going on xoxo

[Snacks]

I'm so sorry, mate. I wonder whether there is some kind of large psychological hurdle that's in your path? Even unresolved issues from DD1's birth?

[beckoes]

i agree, i think with a combination of everything thats been going on with lost os baby losses on BB and also i think that with the second you are more aware of what 'can' happen. im sure everything will be fine and you can begin to relax and enjoy being pregnant. hugs

[Beach Mama]

I agree with all the gorgeous advice from PP and just wanted to add that with DS I felt kicks early on, at about 17 weeks or so, for about a week, then they stopped completely and I mean completely until I was 23 weeks. So frustrating but once he was that bit bigger I felt them all the time. xoxoxo

[Santosha]

Just thought I'd update and say that I'm feeling SO much better after our morphology scan. Still have random worries, but not nearly the 'horrors' of last week. The sonographer was amazing and really thoroughly went through with me all the physical indicators you might have that something could go wrong (issues with cervix, umbilical cord, bub's heart...). Looked at each part and explained in detail why it was measuring/functioning well etc. and reassured me that I have one very healthy, happy little bubba in there.

He also told me that my placenta is at the front this time, which might explain why the movement I'm feeling is so different / more inconsistent than with DD.

AND we know the sex... (heh heh heh... not telling!) which has further helped me to start making a connection to this beautiful little creature.

Thanks so much again for all the stories and support. It means a lot. Hopefully not too much more freaking out from me from here on in.... I'll try!

[*EJ*]

That's so good to hear Santosha, great that you feel like you can relax and enjoy your time being pregnant now. As i was reading i was wondering if you had found out the sex. I didn't with my first but did with my second and third and i found that there was more bonding involved prior to the birth. All equally loved once they arrive of course but just different during pregnancy. Enjoy and stay healthy and well xoxoxo

[Santosha]

Thanks EJ. Yes, we did find out the sex (hehehe not telling though!!) and it has helped with forming a bond. At this rate this little one will NEVER have a name though. DH and I had agreed on one if it was the other gender, but as things stand, can't agree on anything for this one!

[Possums]

I am so glad you are feeling better. I found the 18 week scan really helped us too, and we also found out the sex and can't agree on a name...yet :-) I think it helps with the bond. Sometimes when you have been exposed to loss it just makes you put your guard up more.