I am so sorry that you are going through this and feel so alone.
I wish i could give you some comfort and a big hug IRL.
Please know that i am thinking of you.
Just a thought - Maybe your DH doesnt know what to say or is struggling with his own feelings ? I hope you are able to have a talk.
Oh hun, I am so sorry you feel so alone ATM, many hugs to you sweetie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that all is well with your bubbie, please stick little one!!!
Lisa - my beautiful friend... i have just Pm'd you.
As for D, sweetheart, sadly he is dealing with this the only way he knows how... this is very similar to way back in oct/nov last year. I believe, as i said to you then, he struggles, truly struggles with seeing you sad or dissapointed..and definately hurting. He doesnt know how to handle seeing you this way, in himself i mean. Or, the fact that he has no power or control over what is happening, he is your man and he cant stop what is hurting you right now. For some men, that is more than they can bare. And doing what he is doing (by going to work = going into cave), is his default mechanism.
I truly hope before the early hour's of daylight tomorrow, you both have been able to talk, or he has been able to see and been able to put his fears/feeling's aside, to be able to be there and hold you through this. If it wasnt for the K's you KNOW i would be there in an heartbeat!!
What i said in my PM stands.... as it has for the past 7 months and will continue to do so.
I am for a positive outcome to this babe, from the utter core of me!
stick baby - stick like no other baby has ever stuck before!!!
Last edited by Papillon; May 6th, 2009 at 01:37 AM.
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Im so very sorry you are going through this and feeling so alone. Just know that although it doesnt help the your DH is dealing with it in his own way. It took about 6 years for my husband to break down over the loss of the twins, he kept it to himself for all that time not wanting to hurt me anymore than I was. The thing is I thought it didn't effect him at all and felt wrong for greiving myself so I'd hide it and cry in the shower. I did that for years we didn't talk about it or acknowledge it in anyway until I hit a wall and was a emotional mess. Now they are apart of our family we celebrate them with living roses, candles, tattoos, names, their brother and sister include them in our family tree.
For years I thought he didn't care but men are just so very different than us I'm sure yur DH just doesn't know what to do.
I hope things turn around for you and everything turns out alright but if not just be kind to yourself and do what you need to get through it regardless of how DH deals with it.
Takecare, BIG HUG!!!!
Missy
Oh anila. i just found this thread. I'm so sorry you are going through this uncertainty. Just hold on to that bubba.bubba hold on to mumma. if you need anything today let me know as im free.
lots of sticky vibes for you hun.
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