Trying to stay positive, but im so scared.

[Papillon]

Lisa - my beautiful friend... i have just Pm'd you.

As for D, sweetheart, sadly he is dealing with this the only way he knows how... this is very similar to way back in oct/nov last year. I believe, as i said to you then, he struggles, truly struggles with seeing you sad or dissapointed..and definately hurting. He doesnt know how to handle seeing you this way, in himself i mean. Or, the fact that he has no power or control over what is happening, he is your man and he cant stop what is hurting you right now. For some men, that is more than they can bare. And doing what he is doing (by going to work = going into cave), is his default mechanism.



I truly hope before the early hour's of daylight tomorrow, you both have been able to talk, or he has been able to see and been able to put his fears/feeling's aside, to be able to be there and hold you through this. If it wasnt for the K's you KNOW i would be there in an heartbeat!!

What i said in my PM stands.... as it has for the past 7 months and will continue to do so.



I am for a positive outcome to this babe, from the utter core of me!

stick baby - stick like no other baby has ever stuck before!!!