Oh Sweetheart, it's almost unimaginable to think after all you've been through that your dreams will finally become a reality - and the reality does suddenly hit you like a ton of bricks, you're feelings are very very normal.

I know through my first IVF pregnancy, it almost seemed to good to be true, and I often wondered if our 'luck' would run out.

You haven't wasted your pregnancy because of your fear babe, I think fear is very much a normal part of the pregnancy roundabout and we all feel it at some point, so don't be too hard on yourself. LTTTC leaves a legacy of fear and emotional pain, I agree that it does take away a little from the 'normal' pregnancy process, you can't ever just 'forget' about it. But it also shapes the person and Mum you are, and when you meet your girls, the LTTTC legacy will dim significantly, your heart will melt with amazing love and all of a sudden everything does feel better, right and just the way it should be.

Wishing you a beautiful birth for you and your girls Mel xxx