Oh Scooby doo

I hope you don't feel silly/mental feeling like this. It seems more natural to be that way rather than skipping along as if nothing was bothering you.

I was exactly the same after an early loss. I didn't tell anyone, only really discussed the preg here - and I couldn't dare think about it on my own. I thought I'd be ok past the first u/s, then 12wks, then 20wks...nope still nothing but fear. I was worried bad thoughts would jinx everything, I had to stay out of the PAML threads in case I read something that would jinx me. I couldn't connect with my tummy at all. In short, I went through so much fear for 9 months that I swore I could never, ever go through it again.

Then she was born....and it was all over.

Its not long now hun. You can pack your bag the night before. Dh can move the boxes out of the room and when you come home you can sit on a beanbag in the nursery and direct DH putting everything where it should be whilst you hold your precious bundle in your arms xoxoxoxoxoxo

Thinking of you.