Thanks Lulu, yes i was thinkin i was abit silly/ mental and comments from friends and family really didnt help!! But once i had that realisation i felt so much better and its really why i wanted to write in here, because im sure i am not alone in having these feelings.
I explained to DH who has been wonderful and said he will set everything up while im in hospital and i have to say its like a weight has been lifted.
we only ever wanted 2 kids so i know this will be my last pregnancy so im still a little annoyed with myself that i havent "enjoyed" it to the fullest IYKWIM. But i do agree once i hold her in my arms i dont think any of it will matter. Thanks again for the reply and your kind thoughts
scooby- dont think you are being silly....it's natural to have fear after your experiences and it's very hard for people outside those experiences to really get it. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you as you get organised and sending you the best
I too have fear, lots of it...I keep wondering when/if I will truly be able to enjoy this pregnancy...at this point I am thinking perhaps a tiny bit after my first scan next week and then a bit more after the 12 week scan? hope so!
scooby - that makes perfect sense hun - i had feelings like that and talked them over with DH very early as i am someone that will let anxiety win out for far too long - with his help, i've now done the opposite and embraced this pregnancy in a "this IS going to work" fashion - and am getting organised probably earlier than i thought i would. but i know in myself if i got past a point (having two friends deliver at 24 and 25 weeks in the past 15 months) - i'd freak out and not do anything. at this point, i'm aiming to be semi-ready at those milestones - it's early, but i feel like i need to be JIC. i think i'm trying to reverse-jinx myself - if i'm ready, baby CAN'T decide to surprise me and show up early like those two munchkins!
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