Thanks Lulu, yes i was thinkin i was abit silly/ mental and comments from friends and family really didnt help!! But once i had that realisation i felt so much better and its really why i wanted to write in here, because im sure i am not alone in having these feelings.
I explained to DH who has been wonderful and said he will set everything up while im in hospital and i have to say its like a weight has been lifted.
we only ever wanted 2 kids so i know this will be my last pregnancy so im still a little annoyed with myself that i havent "enjoyed" it to the fullest IYKWIM. But i do agree once i hold her in my arms i dont think any of it will matter. Thanks again for the reply and your kind thoughts