Can I swear??? I think that is the only fitting way to express my shock, excitement and absolute joy for Kelly and Grub. I guess OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! will have to suffice. What amazing good fortune for both of you. I'm so happy and will watch with interest and hope that your tales keep reminding me of why I have mostly made up my mind not to go through it all again.

Grub, when you were telling us your suspicions of being preggas, how funny were you girl, I nearly peed myself laughing at your hastily written "prosetergone" and the fact that you said you "aren't jumping from the rooftops" yet. You will forever remain the biggest dag I know!! I can just see you now, yay we're pregnant, time to jump off the roof. Well I'm sure you'll be screaming as you go anyway. By the way, I'm not red-penning your writing, I just got the urgency in your typing and it cracks me up

I've missed a lot for one reason and another, not the least of which was due to a trip to Townsville to see my family before Jazzy's surgery. Man, I can be so incredibly dumb! I bought this super duper cheap jetstar flight to Cairns, because in theory it would be easy to catch the bus to T'ville and since my flight got in at midnight, we could travel through the night and be in T'ville by morning. That's if everything had gone right, the airport hadn't stuffed me around, I had caught my connecting bus and I hadn't been stranded at 1am in Cairns with no buses and no taxis and the airport closing down and nowhere to stay. My poor old DH got the phonecall from me at 1.30 and booked me into the flashesst motel in town for a whole 4 hours sleep before setting out on the bus again. The bus trip was oh so freaking mind numbingly boring and Jazzy was not playing nice for about 4 out of 6 hours. If someone had handed me a rusty butter knife, I'd have set to work on my wrists. A 3 hour drive by car is like 6 by bus with a toddler on your lap. I just kept thinking "kill me now". We do lots of travelling but that was by far the worst and cost soooooo much more than it would had I simply just flown direct and not tried to go it on the cheap. Needless to say, I flew back to Cairns, overnighted in a motel again and then flew out and all flights were complete bliss, heaven, wonderful experiences compared to the bus. NEVER again! Can you believe how many people see a mother with a baby strapped to her, travelling on her own with luggage and I mean struggling at these mongrel airports who charge money for trolleys (when you don't have it, what do you do?) Of course it's easy to dwell onthe negative, but there are also good people who go above and beyond to help.

I'm allowed to have a rant because hey it's my birfdy today and I've got time on my hands (ha, that's funny, cos I got a watch), I mean, the wee one is sleeping still.

Grub, I'd be looking to the toofy pegs for the answer to your clingy question. Jazzy did the red cheeks thing and then woke at all those hours you described lastnight. I'm used to those nights and even though I'm trying to wean her back into her cot beside our bed more, on nights like that, it is so much easier not to fight it and just let them snuggle when they need it. As Neptune says, they don't get dependent, they just need a bit of reassurance while they go through something new, painful and unsettling. It could be a coincidence that Ash's teeth play up with DH going away or just change in his routine. I always suspect that changes in routine plays a big part, (almost a stress reaction) but that's just my thoughts.

In Townsville, in the lovely, stifling heat Jazz slept so well with no wake ups whatsoever, so I started to think that she must wake with the cold at home. She never misses a wake- up at midnight for a feed on a week where she's sleeping well and not teething. She developed her own quirk though which is she must lie across the top of the bed (ours) with her arm dangling between matress and bedhead and if she has to crawl up over your face and across your pillow to get there, then that's what she does. It's the funniest thing. Other times she does this exhausted flop thing where she flops around everywhere until she drops asleep again, (usually on my head).

Well she's up and racing, so I'd better go and supervise.

Just a huge shout out to Miss Neptune...I think you are amazing!!! Congrats on all that you've been through that has led to you feeling more confident that things will improve and you've done a fantastic job to cope with so much and still study, do exams and think of going back to work. Massive respect lovely. Good luck and take some time for yourself in your break.

Bye lovelies.

P.S Happy 1st birthdays to Tara and Adam