Ive been thinking of writing in here for ages.

Im finding it really hard to bond with the baby. Im constantly waiting for something to go wrong.

I dont deserve this baby. I cant even accept that Im pregnant yet. Everyone seems to be so happy about it but I cant accept it. Call it denial. I dont know.

I always thought when I finally got pg Id be jumping off the rooftops happy as can be. I am happy about it I really am, I dont know

No need to respond, I really just needed to get it out.