Well not going to be the post I'd so hoped for. My first issue which DH and I joked about initially but then I was seriously not laughing half an hour later was that I am a regular pee-er. I pee A LOT!. It is a joke amongst friends, bladder size of walnut etc etc. However, having drunk my litre between 7 and 7.30 am... by 8 when we arrived (half hour early) I was very uncomfortable, which became painful. They said I could pee 1cup or count to 5. Well that would alleviate it for 5 minutes or so. Ended up doing it 4 times, but was bladder was clearly still very full.
Anyway, I could tell straight away there was no heartbeat and the sonographer didn't say anything. She asked me to empty my bladder and then did an internal. More measurements and then she talked us through it. Neither of us said a word, just stared at the screen, it was horrible and I could feel myself tearing up but kept it together.
Now according to doc and ourselves (not the ticker) I'm 7 weeks tomorrow. According to what she saw on the scan I'm only 5 weeks and 4 days. She said she wouldn't expect to see a heartbeat at that stage. So I have to see FS on Wednesday, another blood test and then another scan in 10-14 days. We both felt flat on way home, I was wrapped up in my own thoughts as was DH and he dropped me home, had a hug and went to work.
Having been awake since 5 I just went back to bed for hour or so, but funnily enough didn't sleep. Sorry for mammoth 'me' post but there we have it.
Oh airline - what a crushing disappointment. Been there, not a t-shirt I wanted to get. I cried my eyes out all over the sonographer, doctor that got called in, my FS who made the initial judgement, the lady at reception and so on.....
Very very very best wishes for the next week. Praying for you that it is just a little bit behind and will catch up plenty by the next visit. I'll be thinking of you.
airline, honey, i can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling atm love but please know i'm sending you lots of support and hugs and positive vibes. I really hope it is simply a case of wrong dates and you get some better news soon. Be kind to yourself and your DH ...
Last edited by onthefly; November 23rd, 2009 at 02:42 PM.
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thanks for you support and thoughts grub and smithy. DH smsd me earlier said he was p**** off and frustrated that nothing is ever simple in this whole 'thing' with us. I said I didn't feel like that, just sad. With it being IVF there's no mistaking the dates... so it's either slow developing...or no longer with us. Last time the levels rose too slowly and we never got to the scan stage....I'm so worried that it's gonna leave us too.
Anyway, sorry to bring people down, not my intention. I'll let you know when we get anymore news - another waiting game.
oh hun this road were all on is so bloody hard sometimes and far from easy ,the stress is over welming and sometimes i think it must be so hard for our dh to watch us go through the hurt as theres nothing they can do in the past i have felt so sorry for my dh watching me only get 2 eggs or ****ty embies his wached me cry for hours, i dont know i think they get angry and upset for us more than anything im feeling it for you both rite now thats for sure as i no just what your both going through and i will be that everything works out hun and do not feel bad about coming in here and talking you wont bring us down hun were here for you any time ok .luv smithy big hugs for you sweety and take it easy,stay calm and stick together youll get ther my friend im sure xoxo
aww airline im very sorry that happend today hun ,take it one day at a time darlin .dont give up just yet though ok xoxoxo
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