Well not going to be the post I'd so hoped for. My first issue which DH and I joked about initially but then I was seriously not laughing half an hour later was that I am a regular pee-er. I pee A LOT!. It is a joke amongst friends, bladder size of walnut etc etc. However, having drunk my litre between 7 and 7.30 am... by 8 when we arrived (half hour early) I was very uncomfortable, which became painful. They said I could pee 1cup or count to 5. Well that would alleviate it for 5 minutes or so. Ended up doing it 4 times, but was bladder was clearly still very full.

Anyway, I could tell straight away there was no heartbeat and the sonographer didn't say anything. She asked me to empty my bladder and then did an internal. More measurements and then she talked us through it. Neither of us said a word, just stared at the screen, it was horrible and I could feel myself tearing up but kept it together.

Now according to doc and ourselves (not the ticker) I'm 7 weeks tomorrow. According to what she saw on the scan I'm only 5 weeks and 4 days. She said she wouldn't expect to see a heartbeat at that stage. So I have to see FS on Wednesday, another blood test and then another scan in 10-14 days. We both felt flat on way home, I was wrapped up in my own thoughts as was DH and he dropped me home, had a hug and went to work.

Having been awake since 5 I just went back to bed for hour or so, but funnily enough didn't sleep. Sorry for mammoth 'me' post but there we have it.