we love you girls. thanks for letting me vent.

found my bootstraps overnight and feel much much better today. mum sent me a lovely email about how proud her and dad are of me, specially over the past few months when i've been alone. So that made me feel better.

have decided to ring her this morn and talk through my concerns with her cos i think it'll be reassuring and i know she'll step up for me (although she can be pretty OTT when it comes to this first grandbaby).

So have decided to just let it go. not worry and consider i've got these next few days left for some peaceful activities etc before bub arrives and it DOES NOT matter one bit where i am for chrissy, cos my family and dh would never leave me alone and isolated. In fact it'll probably be something very memorable lol. everyone packed inot a small hospy room with trays of food mum made at my place

positive thoughts positive thoughts positive thoughts.

did a HUGE walk yesterda.. nearly 4km... it felt soo good but was a little further than i should have gone. going again tonight, but the shorter version. So lovely to just get out and have the breeze in your face.. can rellly change your persepctive.

So i may get my hollywood moment now but am working towards an induction early next week to try and not get my hopes up every single day and have them dashed every single day for natural arrival.

i would really like to thank you girls for all your support and kindness. Those other ladies can have their social inductions, I'll wait ... it is the way it is meant to be and I can't control it.

Okay, philosophical musings finished. must go hang out the washing and torment the furbaby

will be back for persies later on.
oxo