Hi girls,
thanks for welcoming me on board and for your wise comments. I hope it's me in your shoes giving advice to newbies one day. for now though I feel I have more in common with the girls in the trying to conceive thread. Is that common? Like a bit of a self-preservation strategy?

I had to go back to my clinic last week for more drugs and I nearly fell to pieces. I have a two hour drive to get there and you'd think I could have fallen apart in my own time and space, but no, instead it all crept up on me while I was in the waiting area at my clinic. I suppose every clinic has a brag wall with all the babies and thankyou cards. Well I was reading them and I could feel the tears and I couldn't stop them, I left the room and could only find a staff lunch room. It wasn't just a sniffle, I wanted to howl! I tried splashing my face and straightening up but it was my first sense of being totally overwhelmed by the journey and the other things that have been going on lately. I'd been pregnant for three days and hadn't cried or felt anything other than happiness and I should have expected that I was due to drop my bundle. Anyway, the nurses and receptionists were great about me crashing their lunchroom and crying on their tea towel!

I haven't had any bleeding, but it's 5 weeks and 2 days and I don't really feel anything. I don't want to wish m/s by any means but it would be great to have some way of knowing along the way. I'm having a blood test today to see if my levels are rising, so I hope I feel a bit more confident by tomorrow.

So it feels a bit like an AA meeting to confess my due date and I haven't felt ready to think about it yet but here goes.....I think it is November 6. Maybe you can help. My FET with a three day embryo (2 actually!)was Feb 18.

Cheers guys