Oh YogiBear, I was devastated to read your news, sending you massive hugs Let it all out, give yourself time and space to grieve. The baby you so desperately want and utterly deserve is out there in the universe waiting for you. Don't lose hope.

When you are feeling strong again, maybe get a second opinion about managing the ANA and NK cells. New treatment regimes are being developed all the time.

Take care of yourself sweetie, wishing you a short wait til you get your little miracle.