Pregnancy after LT TTC #21

**hopeful mum** · March 16th, 2015, 08:48 PM

Well fs couldn' find sac with his scanner. Hcg level rose from 1800 (last thu) to 2100 (today) so he sent me to qld xray for a scan.

They couldn't find a sac and thought maybe an ectopic but later confirme that cocouldn't find theither. Strange as i don't have any pain or bleeding?

Plan is for another bt on Wed morning then a cha with fs. If hcg rising, then another scan.

So no news as such, good or bad. So weird that this is happening, fs doesn't know what's going on :-( I just wish that it was determined one way or another. Was so sure that there would b a bub to see, especially with a rise in levels.

Ah well. Until wed ladies. Take care of you and your bubs. Xo.

**Spoons** · March 16th, 2015, 10:52 PM

I'm sorry you're in limbo, hopeful mum. Good luck for Wednesday.

**Spoons** · March 18th, 2015, 10:49 AM

Good luck today, hopeful mum xo

**hopeful mum** · March 18th, 2015, 01:03 PM

Stil no bt result. Wearing my lucky hot pink bra {wore it transfer day and bfp bt test day} Thinking it can't hurt, maybe has some more good luck in it lol.

Will see you all tonight :-) with hopefully a result/decision on what's happening.

**hopeful mum** · March 18th, 2015, 01:06 PM

Still no word on the results :-(

How are you going spoons? All well with bubs? Fx thathyou have a wonderful pregnancy xo.

**kerbear** · March 18th, 2015, 03:02 PM

Hope you get your results soon hopeful mum.
I have been thinking of you over the last few days and hoping you have been doing ok.

**hopeful mum** · March 18th, 2015, 09:34 PM

Found out late this arvo that I don't have an ongoing pregnancy, so will have to leave you lovely ladies.

Seeing fs/on tomorrow for a check on what's happening. Have to fast in case its ectopic pregnancy so will undergo surgery. Unsure what that will mean for future ivf cycles as this was my second ever 'pregnancy', first one was successful.

Getting back on the ivf train when able to. Numb right now so guessing it hasn't hit me yet.

Good luck for your pregnancies ladies xo.

**Spoons** · March 18th, 2015, 11:10 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss, hopeful mum. Take care of yourself xx

**worrywart** · March 19th, 2015, 10:03 AM

I am so sorry Hopefulmum. I have been following your posts every day. I can imagine that numb feeling. I had that with my miscarriage last year. I hope the grieving period isn't too hard on you and that you get some peace in time.
Be kind and patient with yourself.
Hope surgery goes ok.
WW
xx

**worrywart** · March 19th, 2015, 10:13 AM

Hi Sarah,
Great to hear from you and wonderful news about Kiara. Congratulations!! How are you all doing now? Your hubby sounds adorable. Hope it's all going well and give Kiara a little welcome kiss from me.
WW
x

**Spoons** · March 19th, 2015, 11:23 AM

Worrywart, it's so good to see you posting and your ticker moving along. You are so close to the finish line. How are you feeling?

Me, I'm having a rough time. Been hospitalised twice this week with morning sickness and it's now been confirmed I have a DVT in my right leg. My clexane dose has been increased and an urgent referral sent to the haematologist and ante natal clinic. I'll have more regular scans to check on bub and the placenta etc. This is a huge blow for me as it means moving to a high risk hospital that does not allow students and I was really relying on having my student midwife there for support. I'm guessing it will also mean no active birth and being confined to the bed with monitors etc. As for the future I'm guessing I'll now be on lifelong warfarin as this is my second occurrence of clots. Whether that means no subsequent children, I do not know. I'm only nine weeks and it's a lot to take in. What's worst is knowing I could have prevented this by not letting the morning sickness stop me from drinking and being more active. Sorry for the novel.

**Joeve** · March 19th, 2015, 11:46 AM

Hugs spoons sounds like a lot to deal with. Don't beat yourself up about the morning sickness preventing you from doing stuff. I was hospitalised last time for HG and I'm skirting a thin line this time. Unless you experience it you can't imagine how overwhelming it can be.
And we thought we had jumped the biggest hurdle finally getting pregnant!
In terms of labour, I had an amazing labour that I still smile about. I was monitored and on my back with a drip! Exactly what I didn't want but wow still an awesome experience so don't get too down about it. Just trying to give you an upside to a labour that was more monitored than the ideal

**Spoons** · March 19th, 2015, 11:09 PM

Thank you, Joeve. You are so right. I put so much time and energy into actually getting pregnant that I barely gave a thought to what pregnancy would be like for me. My mum never had morning sickness so I just assumed I'd be lucky like her.
Thanks for sharing your birth experience. I went and found your birth story and found it encouraging. Maybe I'll go look for some more positive high risk/induction birth stories.
I've had a good day today. Managed to eat some crackers so fingers crossed I can keep it up.

**myturn** · March 20th, 2015, 07:49 PM

Spoons they are the exact same words I said... I spent SOOOO much time imagining having a baby, and trying to conceive, that I really never considered what pregnancy would be like. It was sooo much harder than I imagined. But you will get there. It feels like forever, but before you know it, you'll be holding that precious bundle Xox

**Spoons** · March 20th, 2015, 08:12 PM

Thanks myturn. Yesterday at the chemist I saw someone with a tiny baby, only a few weeks old. The bub got a bit grizzly so his mum picked him up and cuddled him and it was a touching moment that reminded what I'm doing this all for. I don't actually see many babies! Especially that small.
The last few days have not been bad on the morning sickness front so hopefully I'm getting over that hump. *touch wood*

**worrywart** · April 6th, 2015, 03:19 PM

Hi all,
Hope all doing ok. I am so pleased to say our little boy Zachary was born on 21 March very quick labour, two days after cerclage removed. The moment he was placed on my tummy was the happiest of my life so far (except for birth of my daughter and when I saw U2 in high school!). He weighed 3.3kg, and was born at 39 weeks, so 3 weeks earlier gestation than my DD, and quite a bit smaller. Hence the VBAC (we certainly weren't pushing for it - literally) with forceps. Yes. Fun.
I have had some complications/slow recovery things (fainted not long after delivery, blood clot (huge!) expelled a couple days after birth, anemia, ongoing incontinence, haemorrhoids (painful) and I had to go back into hospital for anti's due to an infection (vomiting, fever, shakes).
My DH and family are very supportive. My DD is a handful (school holidays) and being very rough with DH, and with me. She talks or yells loudly all day, and things with her and DH are really at breaking point. Any tips on this? She is high energy, argumentative, extremely verbal and sensitive, disguised as anger/rage. She has taken to rejecting me and never leaving DH's side. I am still too sick to leave bed mostly.
I am BFing now, but very open to bottles if it will make family life easier and as the little one gets bigger, I will listen to my body for when time is right.
So grateful to have come this far.
Good luck to everyone else on this messy insane journey.
WW
xxxxx

**Joeve** · April 6th, 2015, 03:55 PM

Congrats on the birth of your baby boy!
Sorry about the complications and your DD. Must be a big a big adjustment for her xx

**Mildez** · April 6th, 2015, 09:00 PM

WW I a so pleased to read about the arrival of your DS. Massive Congratulations. I didn't realise your DD was a c/s birth. I hope your recovery is going ok.

My 3rd DD has just turned 4. She is challenging. Very challenging. Got to run but will be back later.