I can fully understand how your feeling xoxox I think it is a little normal to feel scared and in a way you rmight feel a bit like your protecting yourself a little by disconnecting a bit??? Its so hard to go through a pregnancy after a loss... the whole time is full of moments of wanting to be positive and moments of knowing the dark possibilities

The closer you get to the end the harder it might get. I wouldnt look too much into the idea that you felt the same with DS... there are different reasons why your feeling like this now, but I do understand that feeling and know what you mean- i felt it with Angel DD, i just knew the whole time she wasnt going to make it, and then with DS.. i guess i wouldnt let myself feel it, i didnt really picture him being here because then i was getting my hopes up.

Maybe try once a day to have a little moment, and talk to your belly bub.. tell her your feeling a bit scared but that you love her so much. A good friend told me that to get past any feelings, you need to feel them and acknowledge them, so tell her your scared because you love her so much. Feel it, and then you dont have to be scared of feeling it. Does that make sense?? And it might help you. Dont rpessure yourself to be a happy excited mum to be, coz that is just too much to try to do. But remember that your fear comes from your love of this bub, and of DS, so even if you feel disconnected, you really are focusing on her alot xoxoxox

I will be thinking of you in these next few weeks and sending lots of love and strength and white light your way